Friday, November 19, 2010

A Little Birdy Told Me: A Story of Pure Love Through a Toucan

I have always loved the toucans here in Costa Rica. We raised three since they were just days old and without feathers. They eventually returned to the wild where they belong. We had another toucan, Cassidy, who followed me around, hopping from place to place. But there was something different when I came back this time. I loved them even MORE.

I was so drawn to them and was glad it was the time of year that the palms have the fruits they like to eat so they were around a lot. I told them how much I loved them, I talked to them and I even made a video called I LOVE TOUCANS. I was showering the toucans with my love and appreciation for them.

Not too surprisingly then, one day last week a guy walked up here with a toucan. When we appreciate and love something so much, the Universe brings us more of it. It took me about 30 seconds to even realize he was holding one as he had it under one arm and the toucan was pretty much limp.

“Let’s go up to the kitchen, I have some papaya and see if he will eat,” I told him. The toucan practically attacked the papaya which was a good sign. He was still wanting to eat.  I asked the guy what he was planning to do with the toucan and he told me he was going to bring it home to his mom to take care of. His house was still a half hour walk more. I said, “Please let me take care of him.” And he agreed.

I cut up some more papaya and brought it and the toucan to my room.  He was soaking wet, cold, shaking, and weak.  I put him on a fleece blanket and let him rest. I marveled at how love and appreciation of these beautiful animals brought one to me. As my friend Kidest said, "It's all that love you've been oozing that brought one to your doorstep."  YES!!! Love and appreciation CREATE!!  Love and appreciation brings those things that we love and appreciate right to our doorstep! What a beautiful, wonderful world!!

The toucan, whom I named Timook, could hardly stand, and he was so cold and wet that I ended up wrapping him up in the fleece blanket and holding him to my chest. I closed my eyes and called on St. Francis whom is my partner when it comes to animals. I felt St. Francis put his hands on mine and then the most amazing thing happened. I saw this flood of white light open up above us and wrap around us. We were showered and wrapped in this light and I don’t really have the words to exactly describe the feeling, but I can say it was the purest love I have ever felt. It was the PURE LOVE of GOD. It was warm and bright and complete and intense and so very fulfilling.

This deepened my ability to let Source/God/Love flow THROUGH ME. I did not have to do a thing, I didn’t have to “try” to heal or try to do anything. I just got out of the way, emptied my mind and let it FLOW THROUGH.

Synchronistically, my beautiful friend, Kelly K. Brown, whom I always seem to be in sync with, posted an Abraham-Hicks quote that helped me to find the words:

It was so much more love than she’d ever felt that she didn’t know what she was feeling.
It was being hugged from the inside, out. It was cellular love.
It was a love so thorough, so complete, so wrapped through her that she thought she was having a heart attack!
It was love that was so pervasive she didn’t know what to do with it. She couldn’t describe it, she couldn’t label it, she couldn’t contain it. It was bigger than she was consciously, and vibrationally, ready even to endure; a love so great she couldn’t quantify it or understand it.
And in time, little by little by little, she and so many others of you have raised your vibration until you feel on a very constant basis that Love wrapping through you.

THAT describes what I was feeling. It didn’t end when the light faded either. Anytime I held or put my attention on Timook, that wave of LOVE washed over and wrapped around me.

Timook was soaking in this energy. Toucans are usually very skittish with humans and can do some damage with that big, long beak… and Timook was old enough to have the serrated edges that helps them to rip apart their food. But he made no moves to attack me, I could see that he totally trusted me. In fact when I cuddled him up to me and he put his beak down on my shoulder, tears of pure joy/love/connection streamed down my face.

Timook seemed to be getting stronger and even hopped around my bed a little bit. He ate some papaya and watermelon throughout the day, sometimes from my hand and sometimes he even took some himself.

I had a dilemma of what to do at nighttime. I couldn’t allow my dog and cat to be in the room if Timook was free because although they had pretty much not shown any interest so far, a fluttering, flying toucan would be too much for their instincts to resist. So I put the dog and cat out. The dog whined, the cat scratched at the door. It was going to be a long night. I tried to wrap him up and put him in a box, but he was much too energetic for that. He kept popping his beak out and then wiggled himself free and stood on the edge of the box. Hmmm, this wouldn't do. But then I had an idea… I wondered if Timook was strong enough to perch on a rod, a shower curtain rod to be exact. I brought him into the bathroom and sure enough, he was able to stand and seemed happy to be able to perch there for the night. My problem was solved. I was able to shut the bathroom door, let the dog and cat in and everyone was safe and happy for the night.

I checked in on Timook several times to make sure he was okay. The last time I checked, he was in full Toucan sleeping form… tail up, head turned 180 degrees and his beak resting on his back. He was getting stronger!

In the morning Timook seemed to be a little weaker than the night before. I heard him fall off the shower curtain rod perch and I went and got him. He really wanted to be by my side and anytime I went into the bathroom, he would hop to the edge of the bed and try to look in. When I’d leave my room, I’d put him on the top of a wooden chair and he’d turn his head, watching me walk out and would watch me through the screen as I walked across the balcony. I spent as much time with him as possible as we both loved the energy.

Timook ate a bit during the day, but not as much as the day before. I was starting to get a little concerned that he was getting weaker. I decided that the next day that I would call the wonderful bird vet that I met through my macaws and other toucans and see if I could send Timook to San Jose on the airplane to get veterinary care.

As the day and evening wore on, it was obvious that Timook was getting worse and probably wouldn’t make it. He couldn’t stand on the chair let alone the shower curtain rod. I was going to have to stay up with him as I didn’t want him to die alone, nor did I want to wake up with a dead bird next to me.

Timook alternated between laying perfectly still to his body jerking around. He placed himself right up next to me, with is beak under my arm. I stroked him and spoke words of love… and around 1:00 am, he left his body.  I felt his spirit go right THROUGH ME.

I felt both relieved that he wouldn’t have to suffer and sad. We had bonded so much in these two days together, experienced the BIG LOVE of Pure Source Energy together.  We had a very special bond indeed.

I gently placed his body in a box and put him on my altar. The next morning, as I was sitting on my bed, a younger toucan landed on the thick vine right outside my door. I had never seen a toucan land there before.  He was looking right into my room… right at ME!! He looked over at the box where Timook’s body lay and then back at me. I heard Timook speak to me:

“Yes I see the body there, but I am not there. I am here in this toucan and everywhere, in everything. That love that you felt with me is in every single thing, it is the Love Particle that permeates and creates ALL that Is. Thank you, Sierra, on behalf of all the toucans. You are one of us. You are one with us.”

During the day, several toucans visited, hanging right next to my room, looking in at me, thanking me, showing me that Timook lived on.  I no longer felt sad. I realized that Timook did not come to me to be healed. He came to me to give back the love that I had been giving the toucans and to allow me to experience that Pure Source Love wrapping around me that we feel when we die… but we don’t have to die to feel it!! I am very much alive and I felt it and now have access to it at any time.

The love that Timook brought me was to bring me up to speed with the new higher frequencies of love that now exist. Whether you believe that 11/11 opened up new vortexes, stargates or whatever, the truth is that that many people focusing on a new reality, that many people focusing on Love shifted the vibration of the planet to a new higher frequency.  It was a gift beyond measure.

My friends and I were posting people’s Facebook statuses to each other, all of them about LOVE, commenting on the new, higher frequency we all felt. There was a big wave of LOVE going across the planet, and I know that Timook took me along the crest, on the leading edge of the wave of LOVE.

Thank you, Timook. You are forever in my heart and will never be forgotten. I feel you and the LOVE that we shared all around me.  Wrapped in Love. Pure Source Love.

It just doesn’t get any more delicious than that!