Friday, July 29, 2011

From Paralegal to Paradise ~ Miracles and Manifestations

Part I - A Circle of Dolphins
I have always told people, "Before I die, I will swim with dolphins." So when the postcard came announcing a dolphin swim with Penelope Smith (the "Mother of Interspecies Telepathic Communication"), I knew that my time had come to take the plunge!

I didn't know how I was going to pay for it, so I told the universe, "If I am meant to go on this trip, let the $500 deposit appear now!" In a few days, I received a $500 bonus from my work I was not expecting because I had not worked there for long. The universe had spoken!!! As I continued to tithe and do spiritual work around the trip, the rest of the money came from magical places. The dolphins made sure I was able to be with them at this time!

In the couple of weeks before the trip, I entered a dream state, wherein psychic experiences were frequent and strong. I felt an inner pull that at the time, I could not explain. I was calm and happy and didn't go through the usual "going on a trip" stress I have felt when I've gone away for much shorter periods of time. My animals were fine with my leaving. They knew why I was going and were anxious to do some healing work on my friend who was taking care of them while I was gone.

I brought along a new journal to keep careful notes of all that went on. I also brought along my Medicine Woman cards which have been so helpful in guiding me on my path. I chose a card each night.

Following are my (censored) journal entries from our dolphin journey.

June 13, 1997 - I met people from the first dolphin trip at the hotel. They are glowing, dreamy eyed and can hardly talk about their experience. I wonder if I will be like that too...I hope so! Tonight we had our orientation meeting around the pool at the hotel. As I looked around at the faces of my fellow dolphin seekers, I saw many people that I recognized! I asked at least five people if I had met them at one of Penelope's workshops, and they said no. I realized that my deja vu experiences were continuing...and getting stronger!
I sat around our hotel room with my roommate, Kim, and we each picked a Medicine Woman card. Here's mine:

Apprentice of Pipes - Channeling the Light. "Open to the messages within. Pause and reflect and renew my journey. I will inspire others by being who I am and channel my light to them. I will be working with a true master who will help me deliver my message to the world. I am a student filled with grace."

I am ready! Bring on the master(s)!!

June 14, 1997 - We got on the boat at 7:30 am. Since I am in a weird time dimension, I'm not sure how long it was, but it seems like10 minutes after we lost sight of land, a very large pod of bottlenose dolphins were all around our boat. Penelope read to us the transmission she got from them. They circled us three times and "brought us into their circle." I felt safe and protected from this giant dolphin hug. What a great start!

After a calm ride through the Gulf Stream, we went through customs at West End, Grand Bahama, which took about 1/2 hour. We went for about a 30 minute ride and then anchored the boat. It was time for our first swim in the warm turquoise waters of the Bahamas. What an incredible experience! I saw the most beautiful fish, some like I used to have in a fish tank several years ago. I'll never have one again knowing where they are taken from! Lots of bright purple coral and sea grass. The water feels like a warm bath where I could stay forever!
At our meeting after lunch we all chose new names for the trip since we are going on a spiritual adventure and are becoming new people. I kept Sierra, but added "Lady of the Dolphins". Penelope is "Peace", Alex is "El", Laura is "Alehia", Kim is Anghk, etc. I think my favorite name is "Shimmer Coo" which a lady named Deanna chose. I really like everyone I have met and can already tell that there will be lasting friendships after the trip is over.

Medicine Woman Card for today: Nine of Arrows - Overcome Doubt and Fear: "The mental concepts, the attitudes, the beliefs I hold, I cherish for what they have allowed me to do. But I also see that they are simply ways of perceiving reality and not reality itself. The only reality is ultimate harmony, and troubles are simply trips the mind is taking. As I stumble on the path, I put myself down and pick myself up by the way I value each step. I am way above the rules, though not above using them. I am deeply respectful of all that is; I laugh at all that isn't. I do not need to see all the answers and have all solutions before I act. Just point my heart toward good. It may seem as though I am shooting in the dark, but go ahead. Use the skills I have been working to develop. This is their supreme test."

I then closed my eyes and got this message from the dolphins:

Come enter our world of
Crystal Blue waters
and pastel corals
But come with a pure heart
and ready for fun
Let us show you the way -
our way of life
And when you leave
You will take us with you
in your heart
and we will never leave you.


I sent telepathic messages to Peter and Annette back at home tonight. I mostly sent them the blue of the water. It will be interesting to see if they receive a color!

June 15, 1997 - I didn't sleep last night. I tried and tried and finally went outside. It was incredible! Straight above the sky was clear and I could see stars, but all around me was lightning. So much energy everywhere, no wonder I couldn't sleep. I tried again to go to bed and put my meditation tape in my Walkman. I usually am asleep within 10 minutes, but last night I finally heard the whole tape! I came back outside and just enjoyed it because I was not tired. Today I feel just great, I am definitely running on dolphin energy!

Two dolphins appeared today but they left right away. Peace said that they wanted us to leave, that we were not in the right spot. They are waiting for us elsewhere. We cruised around the ocean looking for dolphins, but didn't see any, so we stopped and just went snorkeling around. We danced to Ho's drumming tonight, it was great!

Medicine Woman Card: Four of Bowls - Materialization of Love. "To my mind, as I am at rest, comes wonderful thoughts of things I shall like to create for others to show my love for them. In my mind when I am at peace, Creator tells me of what it is I have to share. It is through my own talents and abilities, through my own use of these in time, that I create those gifts I imagined. Now I give form to the love I feel for another. Now I create my gift in a material way, expressing those intangible feelings that draw me to my people."

June 16, 1997 - Still haven't really slept, maybe 2 hours last night. This morning as I was getting ready to go swimming, I sat down next to Peace. I could feel her reading me and she told me that it was a time of high vision for me and that I should be drawing to get it out. I told her that I was keeping a journal and she said that was good. I didn't know that Peace was so afraid of the water, but coming on this trip was a major step for her. She used to be photosensitive to the sun and couldn't take the heat. I guess El has been asking her to go for quite a while and she never wanted to go before. But the fire has totally changed her body's way of reacting to things, it's really quite incredible. She was very sick for two weeks before the trip and wasn't even sure she was going to make it, but she said the dolphins gave her energy on the day before the trip.
Still no dolphins today. I feel like they are waiting for something...but what? Peace says that they are preparing us for a special encounter. She told us to be aware of the other beings, the spirits, devas and angels that are all around us.

Medicine Woman Card: Eight of Bowls - Journey of Love: "With the foundation of love that we have built together, we know we can now accept a caring role in the lives of others. Great Spirit, guide us on our way to the fulfillment of our spiritual vessels. We no longer have need of mere pleasures for self alone, but seek to find pleasure as we give love, healing, and service to those who most need our care. Let us know where to serve. We are ready."
The strangest thing happened tonight. I was finally tired and went to the cabin to sleep before my roommate, Kim. I slept on the bottom bunk and the door was right next to me. For some reason, out of a dead sleep, I reached over and opened the door for her as she walked up to it from outside. She laughed because she thought I was getting up again, but then she realized how bewildered I was. I have no idea why I opened the door for her, and I just went right back to sleep.

June 17, 1997 - This morning I woke up and wrote the following prayer in my journal:

Dear God, Angels and Guides,
I am here in the Bahamas to learn whatever lessons you want me to learn and get whatever messages you want me to get. I am open to receive. Please let me swim with dolphins today. Thank you, thank you, thank you!


After coming in from swimming this morning, I heard that Jay, one of our passengers was having heart trouble and that we needed to take him back to Grand Bahama and get him to the hospital. We held a meeting and sent him healing energy as the boat started up and took us back to port. We all felt so bad for Jay and his wife Vicki, and also were sorry that we had to go back. Stewart, our captain, told us that it might be possible to go through customs now instead of on Thursday, which would mean we wouldn't lose any time. We got to the port and a taxi took Jay and Vicki to the nearest hospital. Since we were going through customs, we had to stay about 2 hours, so we walked to a little beach where the water was so warm and clear. I noticed that Peace was very comfortable here, probably because it was so shallow and close to shore. Each time I saw her in the water, she looked more and more relaxed and confident.

We got back on the boat and as soon as I boarded, I could feel that the energy had totally changed, a big weight had been lifted. This is what the dolphins had been waiting for! I KNEW that we would soon encounter dolphins. About half an hour out of Grand Bahama, I got chills up and down my body and I knew they were near. We started to drum and flute and otherwise call out to them and then suddenly, DOLPHINS!!!

Since I was usually the first person in the water to go snorkeling, Kaz, the divemaster on the boat, let me be one of the first two people to jump in. I dove in just as a female dolphin passed by. For about ten seconds, we swam next to each other in unison. I felt my heart about to explode and I had to remind myself to keep breathing!

All of a sudden there were 16 dolphins dancing and twirling all around us. I couldn't believe what I was seeing. There was even a baby dolphin with them! They stayed with us for several minutes but then started swimming out further and only a couple people from our group could keep up with them. Then they were gone.

When I got back to the boat, I sat down on the bench and cried tears of pure joy and happiness. I felt so released, like I had come home. Words cannot communicate exactly how I felt in that moment, but I will never forget it!

After everyone was out of the water, Peace told us that there were dolphins in this group that had never swam with humans before and that they were just as excited as we were. She said that just as we were meeting to discuss what had happened and what to do and not do next time, they were doing the same thing! Stewart told us that it was the most dolphins he had swam with at one time in more than a year.

I decided that the next time I see the dolphins, I'm not going to bring my camera because I found myself spending so much time trying to take pictures instead of just being with them in the moment.

It is storming tonight, quite an appropriate end to an incredible day!

Not too amazingly, I chose the Totem of the Bowls - Dolphins, the Swimmers today. "Straightforward I travel, speaking the truth as I know it. I am here not only to console, but to give to others the tools with which they might lift themselves up. I will offer the ideas that free the mind and body and the heart from pain. My life will be lived as an example of harmony and balance among the creatures of the Earth. Always, I will seek to live in higher consciousness, the awareness of your presence in all that is. I will act as a warrior on the path of peace. My soul shall be impeccable.

Learn from the swimmers. Consider the dolphins, the whales, their patient and persistent love. Go to the ocean or a stream. Float on a still pond. Imagine yourself floating in Great Mother's arms, surrounded by liquid love in the sea of life.

Empty your mind, Let the glistening fish colors, the soft shell shades, the gleaming, subtle rock forms pervade your consciousness. Listen to the sound of the water, water creature. Be cleansed. Dissolve all obstacles. Absolve all friendships of any need for guilt. Let go. Feel your body weightless. Glide. Dive deeper into the pool of love. Watch the sun sparkle on the water until the scene becomes another enchanted world. Play with the waves. See the correlation of all things with your life. Be a fish. Become at home in the water element. Become at home in the easy push and pull of the waves of love. Learn to live as if life were a stream constantly nourishing. Be content in the here and now."

June 18, 1997 - Another beautiful sunrise. I am glad I'm an early riser and get to see Sister Sun wake up. Usually there are just a few other people out there with me. Zephyr Spirit, Dottie, Ro, and Tom are usually around to see it.

We swam with dolphins again in the morning. They didn't stay long and I got the feeling I should get out. As I was standing on the deck, I looked on the other side of the boat and there were five dolphins. I jumped in and swam with them as the rest of the group came over to where we were. The dolphins raced to the front of the boat and did a dance around the anchor. After they left, several of us felt drawn to the anchor rope and held on to it. The dolphins had energized it! Later Angkh and a few other people said they saw the rope and anchor glowing with a blue light.
About 4:00 pm I was laying on the deck in the sun and felt a strong call to get into the water. I got in and swam around and when I looked up, I saw that Peace, El, Yalo and Aleih had all gotten in too. "Dolphins are coming," I thought. But this was to be a test for me. The dolphins told me that I needed to trust, and know that they were there without seeing their bodies. I was told to just relax in the water, close my eyes, and receive the dolphin energy. I felt them as strongly as if they were swimming next to me! Later when I talked with Peace, she said that she too was called out into the water at that time and had felt the dolphin energy.

After dinner Peace sat down in front of the group and told us about her childhood, her fears and how the fire had changed so many things in her life. (Penelope's home in Point Reyes, California was burnt to the ground in the fire of October 3, 1995) She really opened up to us and it was very touching. After her talk, Ho played the drums while Peace did what I can only describe as a "spirit dance." She danced with her body and her soul. It was quite hypnotic! Peace is a different person than the one I used to know. She is fun to be around and totally open!! I'm really glad I am getting to know her better, as this was one of the things I was hoping would come out of this trip.

Thank you dolphins, for all you have given us.

Medicine Woman Card: 17 The Grandfathers - Ascension, "A light shines forth like a star from the heavens, revealing the wisdom of the ancient ones. I rest on the sturdy foundation of knowledge that comes from a past wholly lived, and I feel supported.

The Card Speaks: We are a new hope within you. The old patterns of interference have been broken; you have reached a new level of communication with the ancestral energy of Self. As a result, you can now experience renewed health and vitality. Through meditation, you have found your roots, your source of cosmic nourishment.

We are the Grandfathers. We have walked on the ground upon which you now walk. You are beginning to realize the meaning of our lives and are able to continue in our footsteps. We will begin to teach you of your spiritual heritage, for you carry within you a particular way of walking on the sacred path.

It is your destiny to carry on from where we have led you. You drink from the waters of Earth and now from those of the heavens as well. You are able to take our highest vision and bring it into reality. You, who have a foot in both worlds, are the only one able to lift the consciousness of the human beings once again to a level of hope. It is you who can build anew. It is you who can walk in beauty within the created world.

Explore now the beauty of your bare soul, this soul you have found in your spiritual search. Take time now to concentrate on the relationship of yourself and nature, yourself and God, the Great Spirit Within All. We will help you. We will offer what we have learned, that you might learn from our experiences. Speak with us and we will answer."

June 19,1997 - I woke up early as usual, and went outside to see the sunrise. I was joined by Tom, Zephyr Spirit and a few others. The sunrise was amazing as usual, I felt so content and blissed out!! And then all of a sudden Tom pointed and said "Dolphins!". Sure enough, there were several dolphins right next to the boat. In fact, there were dolphins all around the boat, circling us. My first reaction was to jump in, but it was still dawn and I got a message from the dolphins to let them "supercharge" the water before we got in. We watched in amazement as the dolphin circle went out further and further from the boat until we could see dolphins all around us on the horizon. They did a supercharging ritual as they hunted for their morning meal, jumping out of the water to excite us and play with each other. As I watched the dolphins dance in a circle around us in the turquoise waters with the sun rising behind them, I got the following message:

Circle Circle Circle
Circle of Life
Circle of Love
Circle of One
We embrace you, human fish
Our spirits are wild and free
And so joyous, like you
We circle you now....
And forever


My whole body and soul was signing with joy as we watched this go on for at least 45 minutes until the dolphins slowly started to come back in closer. That's when one of the crew yelled "Dolphins!" and I knew it was time to get in with them.

I ran downstairs and got my gear on and jumped in. As I dove down, two dolphins came straight at me and then around me as they looked me in the eye. And then they were gone! The water was totally charged and I didn't want to get out of it, ever. I found myself wishing I could grow a tail and become a mermaid so I would never have to leave!

The boat went cruising again and we saw more dolphins. We jumped in, but they didn't want to stay, so we got back on board and when we found them again, we went to the front of the boat and watched them ride the bow of the ship as we moved. It was great to see that. The dolphins are so joyful and just wanna have fun!

As if the day wasn't already perfect enough, the Bottom Time II offers a "Resort Course" in SCUBA diving, which means you take a short class and then can take a dive with the instructor. We went to a place called "Sugar Wreck" and I went SCUBA diving for the first time in my life. To be able to breath underwater is so freeing, you feel like you are a citizen of another planet! I saw incredible coral and fish in the wreck. There were sharks, barracudas and I even saw a turtle. I am now hooked on diving and will get certified over the summer.

After dinner we did a beautiful meditation focusing on the newly created vortex Aleih had told us about. El then asked us all to write a message, not to anyone in particular, but to the group, on a piece of paper. We then placed each message in a basket. The basket was then passed around and you were to randomly take one of the messages out and read it. When I opened the message I had chosen, I had another strong deja vu. I had seen and read these words before, in that exact writing. The note said:

Thank you for being you and for the role you've played for me on this trip. May your life be full of love, joy and happiness. Much love always! 

When I read my message to the group, I mentioned that I had seen it before in a dream. As we left the dining hall, Sapphire (Georgia) stopped me and told me that she had misunderstood what El had said and thought we were supposed to write a note to a specific person. She had written the message that I had picked for me and was hoping that I would get it, which I did. I was so amazed I couldn't say anything else to her at the time.

We put on some music and danced up on the second deck (we did "the seaweed" and "the algae", but don't try this at home!) We were having a great time when someone suggested going night swimming. It was our last night in these beautiful waters and quite warm, so a bunch of us decided to go in ... naked! It was so much fun and even the new Esther Williams, also known as Peace, got in with us. We had a total blast! We laughed and giggled and it felt exhilarating! We were not surprised at all when Celia called out from the second deck that she was pretty sure she had seen a dolphin jump out of the water in the distance. We were totally caught up in dolphin silliness and they wanted to be around to witness the silly frenzy they had created in us. 

Medicine Woman Card: Two of Stones - Reflecting on Potential Use of Resources, "The fertile ground of nature surrounds me now, waiting with her gifts for me to notice. The Great Spirit within stands ready in my soul to activate whatever abilities I choose. Which will it be? What can I offer to the world that will bring my earthly reward and soothe my soul? I reflect now on myself and where I am. What can I do for this land around me? What can I do for my people? As I activate myself in a chosen direction, the road to prosperity is cleared."

June 20, 1997 - Our last day on the beautiful boat. I don't want to go! This morning I saw Sapphire sitting by herself and I asked her about the note she had written to me. She said that like me, she is from Atlantis and that we have had a competition thing going on between us for several lifetimes. As we talked more we realized how much we had in common and knew that we would become good friends (again). So many connections on this trip...so many people I have known before, I feel like I'm in the twilight zone. I'm in the dolphin zone!!

We all reluctantly left the dock and went back to our hotel. It is so strange to walk on land, I feel like I'm still moving back and forth. We had a closing meeting at the hotel and shared how we were feeling. Stewart came in as we finished a meditation. We had forgotten some camera equipment on the boat. Everyone was really happy to see him, I think he enchanted the whole boat!

After everyone chose a dolphin necklace that El offered as a gift, Shimmer Coo asked Peace if she would answer a couple of questions that people back home had wanted answered. Luckily, Raj taped this session and I have transcribed it below. 

Do dolphins ever get cold? And what do they do if they get cold?
"I hear laughter on the first question. Of course we get cold. We know how to generate the heat within our bodies, it's taught to us at a very young age. We work on generating the heat from the inside outward all the way to the ends of our bodies. The only time that coldness sets in within our ocean domain is when we are dying and then we let the heat go out the top of our bodies and we leave."

What information can the dolphins give us about what we can do to assist the ecosystem?
"Oh wow, these are the ones that came to us, the group that we got to swim with. And it's the baby that is here, and the baby is considered a master who has come in, and is a master dolphin who is also a whale, who also carries the whale energy. And this is why this baby was allowed to swim free and actually move away from it's mother for a short time in order to grasp the whole human pod as assembled. And then I get a clear picture of me still in the boat, and he said "we didn't miss the one above who is connected with me." This baby is a master being. I see him through this white light all around the baby in a circle in the water.

"All you have to do all around is to let that sweetness, that light, that nourishment of your soul, (that milk that you see is the white light from the soul, that feeds the soul,) is to send that light out wherever you go. You can, by your very nature, just as I do, just as all the dolphin brothers and sisters do, be in the water and clear it, and clear it of all things by the same method that I am showing you. By clearing it in the same method which is sending out the milk of the soul. And when you send out the milk of the soul, it nourishes all souls. All energies align around it in a pure light. If you send this out enough times and with enough people, what happens is that the consciousness of people who are unconscious, who are ignorant of their connection to others, changes. They go into that same trance that you felt, and what happens to them is that their love is realigned so that they cannot put anything out but the milk of pure love. 

Do not underestimate your own ability to put out that spiritual force. All of you have been charged in the waters of love. I was brought here by my dolphin and whale brothers; the entire pod actually was there to hold me in space so that I could send this all all to you. Now feel the energy that comes from your own body no matter what infirmities or what impurities, you feel you have. Feel the milk of pure sweetness and love radiating in the vortex all around you. Now as you feel that energy, you will feel yourself dwelling in the ocean of pure love. The ocean of pure love is that which surrounds us at all times and connects us to all life. You will see in that ocean there is everything that is on this planet and in other realms. There are impurities, there is beauty, there is love. Send that milk that sustains your soul out into that ocean and as you increase that in magnitude and quantity, the entire quality of the ocean changes. Both the physical ocean that you see with your body's eyes, and the ocean of pure love that sustains us and in which we all dwell. This is the secret. All the technological wonders of this world are pale in comparison. This encompasses all those technological details that humans love to wear as part of their minds. 

I charge all of you now in this room, and all of you who have gone on these trips, and especially this group which I was sent to be with, I charge you now with the service, with the solution of sending out the milk of pure love and soul into the ocean. I promise you will see, all things will grow. The whales, as you have said, will return, the dolphins will multiply in number. The ocean will be sweet to all those who drink it, and the earth itself will be mature and expand in this new richness from the bottom of the ocean all the way to the tallest mountain. Never forget these words. It is not these words that I charge you with, I charge you with entering pure love. That is each of your mission, and it is why I came here to this place and why we now go forth into the world. You have all been touched and changed. You will never be the same. We love you. We are with you. You are the same as us. We are you. You. You." 

As Peace was transmitting this message from the baby master dolphin, I had chills from my head to my toes. I saw dolphins swirling all around the room in a circle and then all around my bed at home. I felt as if I was in a twirling mass of love...and dolphins! Right after this and for the next few days, I kept getting visions, but they would come to me in an unusual way. I would feel like I had my snorkeling mask on and it was full of water and I couldn't see. Then, the water would drain out and everything would be clear and I'd see dolphins, my house, places and people I didn't know, people I had met, and other unusual sights.

I remembered that in the many hours I had spent in the water during our trip, I had sent love out into the ocean. I would start with my hands on my heart and concentrate on sending love. I would then push my hands and arms out and around my body in a circle to send love waves through the ocean world. At the time, I wasn't sure why I was doing this, but now I knew why!
Everyone hugged good-bye. I will miss these beautiful people so much...but I know I will see many of them again.

Angkh has asked me if I want to stay with her here in Florida. She is going to rent a car and go to the Florida Keys. I called home and everything is okay. Cecil said the animals are fine and he's enjoying being there. Luckily I had the foresight to know that I would not be ready to go right back to work after a trip such as this, and I have the following week off work. I have the money (sort of).....I'm staying!!!

How strange it is for me not to want to go home. I am such a homebody, always so content and happy in my little cabin on the creek in the redwoods...and the animals! I've hardly thought about them except when I've checked in with them a few times. What is happening??? I'm not ready to go home!

I am in such an altered state tonight, I don't feel like picking a card!!

June 21, 1997, Summer Solstice - My first thought when I woke up was "The boat must be docked, it isn't rocking", and then I realized I was in a hotel room. Damn!
I wrote a letter to Sapphire last night and was glad to run into her in the lobby so I could give it to her.

Angkh and I rented a car and we were off for the Keys! We found a great vegetarian restaurant for dinner and stopped here and there to look at beautiful sites. We ended up staying at an amazing campground on Fiesta Key. It is right on the ocean, has a fresh water pool and lots going on. We went to town but it was getting near sunset and since it was Summer Solstice, I HAD to watch the sun set on the ocean. We went down some residential street until we found ocean access. As I watched the sun touch the water, I looked over at the dock and saw a young girl, about 10 or 11 years old doing a "spirit dance" on the end of the dock to the sunset. She even did a swim move! She was a free spirit dancing to her heart's content. I wanted to go hug her, but by the time I got close, she was gone.

I couldn't sleep again tonight. I went swimming and did somersaults and dolphin moves in the pool. Feels great to be in the water, I just can't get enough! I walked the large campground four times, sat on the wall looking out into the ocean for about an hour and then sat down to write in my journal. I decided it was time to ask the dolphins the life questions I had come with on this trip. Sharon Callahan, my animal communicator/psychic, had told me that many pieces of the puzzle would be put together for me on this trip. She also had told me that the dolphins wanted me to go with questions, but major life questions...and the dolphins would answer them. I had written them on the first pages of my journal before I left and got the following messages tonight: 

1. What is my life path?
You have come so far already, thank you for taking the lessons you have been given with a sense of humor (for the most part) and especially for keeping the faith. Going on this trip was the start of the next road on your life path...that is why everything fell into place, you were guided and protected so that you would be here at this time, on this trip. You are going to introduce many, many people to our world and we needed you to experience it now. The time is right. You are where you should be, follow your intuition and your heart...we will guide you. 

2. Where do I go from here?
Plan spiritual dolphin trips with the facilitators you are thinking about and that will come to you. We'll take care of the rest. Start writing your book. 

3. How can I do the most good for this world and best serve God?
Do the web site you have been thinking about. Tell others about the Universal Laws you have learned and how you have used them for the highest good for all. Tell them of the miracles you have seen. Write the book you have been thinking about and taking notes for. We have been sending you ideas, be sure to write them down. 

4. Is there a spiritual significance to the blonde streak in my hair?
I hear laughter as I ask this question. "We know you were embarrassed to ask this question because you felt it was vain, but we are glad you asked. Yes, you are spotted, like the spotted dolphin, marked to remind you who you are so even when you go through dark times, somewhere inside you, when you look in the mirror, you will remember the path you have chosen for this lifetime. We need you to carry out our work and we couldn't let you stray too far as you learned your life lessons. Your unique blonde streak is a kiss from Spirit."
I don't trust these answers too much because I feel they are dolphin slanted. However, they came through pretty clear. I am still too high from the trip, and have "dolphin brain", I'm going to have to check it out with Sharon when I get home. Could it really be that I am meant to take others on dolphin swims? Could that be my life path? Could life possibly be that grand? As I looked out onto the beautiful Atlantic Ocean, I decided that, yes, life can and will be everything I want it to be!

June 22, 1997 - Angkh and I stopped at the Dolphin Research Center on Grassy Key. When we walked out to where the tour starts, there was a dolphin swimming along the line of people. I watched as she looked each and every person in the eye as she slowly swam by, sometimes stopping and staring. I sent her the white light of love from my soul and to all the dolphins at the Center. I connected with her and she told me, "While no dolphins should be kept captive, we understand that a center such as this can save our lives because it helps people to become aware. We long for the day when such a center is not needed, and it is coming. I look each person in the eye and into their souls and search for the good in them and bring it out so they will learn to love all that is. I make a connection with people so that they will respect and protect my kind and the ocean. I love the children, they give us all hope for our future. I love meeting them! We here know where you have been and thank you for bringing that energy and message here to us. Have fun!"

I later found out that Marina is pregnant. The tour started and the dolphins in this pen performed various "tricks." What I liked is that two of the dolphins had babies with them and the staff did not ask them to perform or even interact with us, but they did anyway! They work with autistic and otherwise handicapped children here and I feel that the dolphins really enjoy that work. After swimming with dolphins in the wild, I am the last person to want to see them in a place such as this, but if they have to be held captive, I think Dolphin Research Center is an okay place.
We walked around to various "pens" where different dolphins were kept together for different reasons. These dolphins were not asked to perform, but did anyway and the tour guide could not stop laughing. I was standing in front of two volunteers and I heard them commenting how silly and playful the dolphins were being today and how great it was. Angkh and I sent love to all the dolphins and we received a lot back! After the tour was over, the guide said that she had been giving these tours for 1 and 1/2 years and this was the best tour she had ever given! Angkh and I knew why, they had put on a special show for us!

We stayed on Sugarloaf Key, too many mosquitoes here!

June 23, 1997 - Key West. Tonight we went on a snorkeling/sunset cruise on a catamaran. The snorkeling was incredible, we went to a reef where there were tons of beautiful fish. On the way back, as we watched the sunset, a twister touched down to the ocean next to the sun on the horizon. That was awesome!

We set up camp at a campground right in town and hit the night life of Key West. It was pretty hopping for a Tuesday night, lots of good music.

June 24, 1997 - We went out on a sailboat called "The Danger" today for a three hour tour (seriously). First we stopped at an uninhabitable key and got in the kayaks and paddled right through the middle! We saw lots of nurse sharks and other fish. We got caught in a storm, I thought it was great! We went to another wreck to snorkel, it was okay, not the best place I've been.
On the way to find a place to stay for the night, we stopped at Big Pine Key to see the dwarf deer that live there. The brochures all say to go at dawn or dusk, the deer sleep during the day, so I was a little annoyed (and very tired) when Angkh said she wanted to pull off and try to see deer. She turned onto an unpaved road and I took a deep breath to relax. Just a little way down the road Angkh said, "I smell sweetgrass burning" and so did I. We drove a little further...and found a fire! We backed out and went back to where we had seen the Ranger Station. I ran to the door but it was locked, so I pounded on it. A ranger finally came and I told him where the fire was. Anghk and I drove back so as to direct people where to go. The ranger came racing by on his radio, soon a fire truck and police were there. The police asked us if we had seen anyone, that they think it is young kids. We hadn't. The ranger thanked us for finding the fire and reporting it.

I learned a good lesson because if I had had my way, we never would have gone down that street and maybe a lot more deer habitat would have been burned. Oh yes, I am humbled!
We then stopped at Hawk's Cay Resort because there was a sign that said "dolphin facility" on the road. What we found there I hope I never have to see again. These are dolphins that are not happy at all. They hardly move. They told me that they constantly leave their bodies and go to other dimensions, because that is the only way they can stay living. Their bodies are empty shells, they said, and it looked like it too! "We are here for profit and greed. The one who takes care of us, she truly loves us, but it is not enough." I just wanted to get out of there and so did they!

Since I have to be at the airport by 1:00 tomorrow, we drove out of the Keys and stayed at a motel. Thank you, thank you, thank you! I didn't come prepared to camp and I was ready for a real pillow!!!

June 25, 1997 - It was sad to leave the dolphins , the Bahamas and Anghk behind but I was ready to go home now. As I was walking off the plane, talking about dolphins to someone, a lady turned around and I saw the dreamy dolphin look in her eyes. She smiled and showed me her dolphin necklace, similar to mine. We started comparing jewelry and we had several similar dolphin pieces! She had just gotten back from a four day trip off of Key West. She said that the pod of dolphins that came everyday was very familiar with the captain and the boat, they had been working together for 10 years. At first I was so bummed, because if I had known about this place while I was on Key West, I would have gone, but then I realized that this was just another sign that I was meant to go back again.

Seeing the redwoods again made me happy, but getting home was so strange. I still felt disconnected from my animals. When I drove up, the dogs, cats, birds, etc. all wanted my attention at the same time and my ex-boyfriend was waiting on my doorstep. I felt like I was going to overload and explode! I asked the animals (including my ex) to please lay back for a while and let me get used to being home again. Luckily, they all understood and gave me my space.
When I checked the mail, there was a letter from Sapphire on beautiful dolphin stationary. It was so great to have that connection to the trip so soon after getting home.

Jacques Cousteau died today. How strange that he left this world on the day I got back from learning about his world.

When I got into bed, I remembered the dolphins I had seen swirling above it during the transmission from the baby dolphin. Just then, Kisa, my beautiful black cat, looked up and all around my bed and told me that she saw them too! Yeah, the dolphins are here!

June 27, 1997 - I got the pictures back from the trip. I have some incredible shots of dolphins! As I was putting the photos into an album and totally re-living the trip in dolphin dream state, Penelope called. She said that more dolphin trips are being planned!

July 1, 1997 - I finally talked to Sharon Callahan today for our "dolphin debriefing". I told her all about the trip and the answers the dolphins had given me to my life questions. She got in touch with the dolphins and told me that I was right on with all the answers, except that I missed some things. I am meant to do dolphin trips and that is one of my next steps, but not to limit myself to that. "Yes, the dolphin swims are a good direction, but the real goal is union with God and to help people experience that through animals. You are headed in the right direction, but keep reminding yourself that it is only a step. Anything that you can imagine, it's not the total picture...it's bigger and better than that!" The dolphins also told me not to forget to bring it all back to myself. Not to forget that by expanding my own spiritual development, I am helping others.

"The book seems to be a dominating thing. You will open up a huge number of people to other realms that might have never gotten this information elsewhere." She said that I was totally correct with the information I got about my blonde streak. Cool!

I told her that I didn't feel as connected with my own animals since I got back. "You probably never will. Something has been freed in you that needed to be freed. While it may be a little hard on them at first, they understand the shift in you and would never hold you back from your life path. While you will always need to come back to the redwoods to ground yourself, I see you doing a lot of traveling and your life will be totally different."

Wow, that's a lot to think about. I remember Marilyn, another spiritual advisor of mine, told me a few months ago that I would soon meet a man, give up my animals and go traveling with him. At the time, I thought she was totally off, but now, while I don't think I could ever give up all my animals, I feel an opening that wasn't there before. I never wanted to travel, and now I do! But where's the man??!?

When I said "Before I die, I will swim with dolphins," I didn't know how true that statement would prove to be. A big part of me did die somewhere out there in the Bahamas, but something else has been born and I can't wait to live it out! The dolphins have given me so much; body, soul, mind and spirit. I know I will be back soon to see them in their beautiful home and I hope some of you will be with me!

PART II – TOUCHED BY DOLPHINS
So much has happened since my first dolphin swim in June of 1997! (See Circle of Dolphins) After returning home from that trip, I knew that everything had changed and my life with the dolphins was only beginning. I immediately began to organize dolphin swims so that I could take others out to meet the wild dolphins of the Bahamas and let them experience the spiritual growth, joy and love that the dolphins had given me. 

After returning from the dolphin trips in December that I had organized, I felt so empty because I wanted to be with the dolphins and in the Bahamas again. I watched the movie Zuess and Roxanne, about a dolphin and a dog, which was filmed in the Bahamas, and when I saw that turquoise water and the dolphins, I began to cry, actually sob, from a very deep place. The dolphins were calling me!!! I didn't know how or where, but I knew that I would soon be moving, and started to get rid of things I didn't need. "If you lived in the Bahamas, would you need this?" I kept asking myself, which made it very easy to go through and sort out the unnecessary items. I wondered how I would feel leaving the beautiful redwood forest and creek that I now lived on. "You can always visit the redwoods, just like you now visit the dolphins," my friend Susan told me. 

I had become good friends with the owner and captain of the boat I had used for some dolphin swims, and met with him in Florida on my way back from swimming with the whales in the Dominican Republic. "You need an assistant," I told him at dinner, in a joking way, but not really joking! After returning from the whale swim, I was even more determined to move and continued to dispose of unneeded items. I gave two and one half months notice at my job as a paralegal, telling them that in May I would be gone for five weeks to the Bahamas, and that I would move soon after returning. 

Wow, I was really going to do it!! I had given notice at my job, even if it was a very long notice. As soon as I had made the commitment in my mind and actually gave notice, Geoff called that very day and said, "Let's get you moved out here as soon as possible and you will be my assistant." I told my boss that I was now giving a two week notice, and less if possible!!! My last day of work in an office was on my birthday, March 26, 1998. 

On April 1, 1998, within 4 weeks of returning from the whale trip, I had all my belongings (what was left of them), my four cats, wolf dog and Greenwing Macaw packed into a Ryder truck, towing my car behind, and drove from California to Florida to start my new life. I had lived in California since I was born, my friends and family are there, but I knew my path was now in Florida and the Bahamas. 

As I drove across the country, I thought about the dolphins and all that had happened in the past year. The dolphins had taught me to only do things that bring me joy. To "go with the flow" and to "ride the waves." You can fight or you can flow. If you are listening to life's messages and following your divine path, life becomes easy and effortless. If you choose to ignore the path that has been given to you, life can become a real struggle. And I was definitely on my path, because everything had just flowed into place, with little effort on my part. Of course, I always say affirmations and write down, very specifically, what I'd like to manifest in my life. This I had first learned from my friend Marilyn Umbach. My favorite affirmation is: "The Divine Plan of my life is manifesting for me now, quickly and in peace, Thank You ,Thank You, Thank You!!" When I say this affirmation, things can change very quickly, like jobs, living arrangements, relationships, etc. If nothing at all happens, I know I am on my path!! I had said this affirmation a lot during the past months as well as making specific lists of what I would like to manifest. Now it was all coming to pass!

I arrived in Florida, got settled in, and got ready for the first dolphin swim of the season. I had gone on several other dolphin swims during the past year, some organized by me, and some organized by others. I couldn't get enough! Every trip was special and amazing in its own way. I could write extensively about each trip, however, this is about my one year anniversary trip in June 1998.

I had been excited about the Summer Solstice trip as soon as I had started organizing it. It was during the Solstice, several of my good friends were coming, it was my one year dolphin anniversary and it was on the same boat that my first trip had been on. (I am now working with Geoff, but this boat is very special to me, for obvious reasons!)

Before this trip began, I had two other dolphin trips that I had organized in May. Both of these trips were totally amazing, with incredible encounters with the dolphins. It was sooooo great to be out with the dolphins again after a several month hiatis. (We do not conduct dolphin swims during the months of January-April due to weather) Again, every participant went home touched by the dolphins, feeling as if their lives had been changed forever. This made me feel so good, because I knew that I was doing what I have always wanted to do, have a positive affect on people's lives, and what a way to do it! Of course, the dolphins were doing the major work, I was only getting people there, but I still feel really good about it!! 

We had a much needed eight day break before the Summer Solstice trip began. My friends, Danielle and Terry from California came in the day before the trip started, and we went out for lunch. Terry told me about some psychic experiences he was having the week before the trip and Danielle also mentioned that she felt her psychic powers were hightened. I know this well. It always happens to me before the trips and it was fun to hear about it from my friends. 
The next day we went to the hotel to meet the other participants, including my good friend Sherri, whom I had met since moving to Florida. As with my first dolphin trip, upon seeing the group, I felt as if I had met many of them before, and Danielle and Terry mentioned the same thing. At our meeting at the hotel pool, I told everyone what to expect and answered their questions, and make sure everyone knew what time to meet in the lobby the next morning. Again, for this dolphin swim, I kept a journal and so following are my entries from my journal. I again brought my Medicine Woman cards with me, so the cards that I picked are included also.

June 14, 1998 - (Evening, in my hotel room) The first dolphin trip this year was pretty intense for me, the second so light, I feel as if this trip will be the balancing trip for me. We went to dinner at the hotel, and had our group meeting. Right before I went to bed, Sherri and I each chose a Medicine Woman card. These cards are so amazing because the card that I chose was Balance.

Balance - "The Restoration of Nature's Balance" - Divine justice works within me, eliminating all that is unnecessary from my thoughts and granting to me all that is good. I walk in balance, knowing Earth's Care. Indeed this trip was about Balance!!! The cards suggested that for the next week, every time I had a negative thought to change it into a positive one. Sort of a mental diet. Since I believe you create your life with your thoughts, this would be a very good exercise for me! It is time to shed the things that do not promote my growth, getting my life into balance. I kept getting an image of my arms open wide, embracing the earth. "Open your arms, open your heart and open your eyes. Embrace it all!" I heard in my mind as I saw the image.

June 15, 1998 - We all loaded up into the hotel vans to go to the boat. I was so happy to be with my good friends, and soon to be good friends! When we drove up and saw the BottomTime II, my heart sang! We boarded the boat at Port Everglades, filled out the necessary paperwork and we were off to Bimini! The ride across (it is about 50 miles) took about 2 1/2 hours and it was a very smooth ride. We docked in Bimini to go through customs, and then we were off to the dolphin grounds. The plan was to let everyone get into the water so that KAZ, the divemaster on the boat, could check out everyone's snorkeling skills and give instruction to those who needed it. But, the dolphins had other plans for us. No sooner did we enter the area where dolphins hang out, there they were. "DOLPHINS!" I jumped into the water for our first of many encounters this week.

We swam with a mom and dolphin baby for more than an hour, and then were joined by three other pairs of dolphins for another hour and a half. It was fun to watch my friends (old and new) swim with dolphins for the first time! Everyone was so excited as the dolphins weaved their magic in and out of the people in the water. The dolphins were spreading love, staying together in pairs and opening hearts for the coming week.

I had an amazing encounter today. Two dolphins were vertical, heads up toward the surface, in the water below me. I dove straight down to them so that we were head to head and they both started to zap me with their sonar. I felt their sonar go through my body and I felt as if they were doing some kind of cell restructuring on me, as well as helping me to release mental and emotional blocks that were holding me back from being all I can be. Instantaneously. Wow!
In the past few weeks out here, we have seen this vertical stance over and over with the dolphins. Were they just trying to imitate us, or was there more to it? I felt there was more to it, I just didn't understand it yet.

Resources - "I am a resource of the eternally creating and sustaining Spirit of Life. All that I need to carry out the divine plan is before me. I refuse to give my attention to things that limit me or deny my wholeness. To all life I am connected. I let go of those things that I no longer value, keeping that which I love and for which I can care. These things bring me comfort, support and help according to their purpose."

June 16, 1998 - Talk about an incredible encounter!!! We were all swimming with several dolphins. Sherri and I were about three feet apart from each other, and a dolphin came up between us, in the vertical position, and stayed there, totally still, only raising himself out of the water enough to catch a breath, and then drop back down. He stayed like this with us for several minutes until someone swam up to us and he left. Sherri and I felt lost in time and space, it was such a quiet, peaceful moment with this dolphin. He was looking at both of us, totally trusting and full of love. The dolphins are all about love!! We watched over and over as the dolphins rubbed up against each other and would touch fins as they swam around. They are constantly touching and caressing each other, and it is so beautiful to be in the water with them and feel the love that they have for each other and for all. 

Ten of Pipes - Coming Home: Your life has been a series of adventures. You have earned health and a wealth of experience. Now you come home to rest and integrate the many experiences you have collected. You are full of ideas, so many you may not know where to begin to implement them all. You want to give back to the world, to each others, to pass on your knowledge accumulated so far.

June 17, 1998 - ONE YEAR DOLPHIN ANNIVERSARY! Today it has been exactly one year since the first time I swam with wild dolphins. I awoke at about 5:00 am to thunder and rain hitting hard on the porthole in my cabin. I went outside to watch the storm, and there was Danielle, Terry and Sherri. I am so glad that they are here with me on this trip! The lightening was exciting to watch and we all sat in silence marveling at the power of nature. I felt as if the storm was washing away all residues of unwanted mental baggage we were carrying in order to prepare us for another intense encounter with the dolphins. After about an hour, the skies cleared until all that was left were a few clouds and a spectacular rainbow that carried intense colors from violet to bright yellow. And it stayed in the sky for a very long time, long after the rain was gone. What a great start to what I knew would be a most powerful day!

Out here where the dolphins are wild, we can never guarantee that we will see them, but I wanted so much to have a great connection today, on our anniversary. At about 3:00 pm (many times out here in Bimini we don't see the dolphins until later in the afternoon) two dolphins appeared and we got into the water with them. They swam around us, as if to check us out, and then left, only returning a few moments later with more of their friends. Many times we find that "scout dolphins" will check out our group and upon finding that we are "okay", will bring back more dolphins. Soon we found ourselves surrounded by 13 dolphins!!! We all had incredible encounters today, with lots of eye contact, I love all the diving and turning and playful things the dolphins do with me, but one of my favorite things is when two more more dolphins just let me slowly swim with them, near the surface, a dolphin on each side of me, like I am part of their pod. I just LOVE that!! That happened several times today and since there were so many dolphins, everyone got lots of one on one contact with the dolphins. I found myself once again moved to tears as the dolphins weaved their love, joy and magic through our group.

I had a deep feeling that some of these dolphins were the same ones who had swam with us last year during my first dolphin swim, but I wasn't sure if that could be since we were in a different area now. But I kept hearing over and over in my mind, "These are the same dolphins, these are the same dolphins, they've come to be with us on our anniversary !" Since I have been out here so much this year, I am starting to recognize some of the dolphins, and they definitely know me now. So I was thinking that maybe it was just the recognition of dolphins from the past weeks.... but no, while there were some of the dolphins here that we had been swimming with this summer, there were some new ones, ones that I also felt familiar with. During this encounter, which lasted an hour and a half, I felt intense feelings of joy, bliss, release, peacefulness and contentment and so at one with the universe!! Once again, I cried tears of pure joy, as I felt so at home here in the beautiful turquoise water with my new and old friends, human and dolphin alike.

Another thing that is so wonderful, is that when you are swimming with the dolphins, they will swim past you, with their eyes half closed in a peaceful bliss. I always feel so loved and trusted when they do this, and it has happened over and over on this trip!

When I got out of the water, I told Penelope Smith (the animal communicator who was co-facilitating the trip with me), that I thought that some of the dolphins were the same ones from last year. She told me that while some of us were still in the water with the dolphins, she had gotten out and walked to the bow of the boat to watch us and talk to the dolphins. She said that one of the mother dolphins looked up at her and referring to her baby said, "Don't you know who this is?" It was the same baby, now more than a year old, who had swam with us during that first dolphin swim and who had given us that beautiful message about cleaning up the oceans. (See Circle of Dolphins for the original message from the baby dolphin). So Penelope had gotten the same thing, that many of these dolphins were the same ones from our first dolphin swim, including the master baby dolphin!!

When we went to dinner that evening, I asked Stuart (our captain), how far dolphins traveled and if they ever see the same dolphins here in Bimini that they see in White Sands Ridge (where our first trip took place). He told us that indeed the dolphins traveled between the two places and that they have seen dolphins from White Sands Ridge here in Bimini, which I already knew from our encounter today, but somehow I wanted it verified. Wow, talk about an anniversary swim, it was a reunion!!!

Thank you, dolphins, for all that you have given us. Thank you for changing my life and all the wonderful things that you have brought me. Thank you for everything you have given me. This has been an amazing journey, and I know it has only just begun!

Five of Pipes - Allure Through Opposition: It is now time to go out into the world and share my dream, to give myself to my people. I know this is a challenging time when my life could be altered by the will of others. My ideas will be up for scrutiny by those I want to please. So, Great Spirit, I accept the courage to face the world with that which you have given me. I accept the wisdom to know how to expose your divine nature within me to those who have eyes to see. I am strong in my commitment that the essence of my vision will remain true to that which you have inspired me to do. I will lure the world to its divinity by the nature of love you have given me. I will call the unknown, the strength and beauty ever-present within me. Your breath, your life will pass through me, and I will be at my best.

June 18, 1998- Another beautiful day in paradise! I relaxed a lot today, taking in all that had happened yesterday. In the Bahamas, it is usually the Atlantic Spotted Dolphins that we swim with, although there are many Bottlenose Dolphins in the area. Bottlenose dolphins are the most common dolphins you see in captivity, Flipper was a Bottlenose. The Bottlenose tend to shy away from the boats, and usually disappear if you try to get into the water with them. My theory, which is shared by many others, is that so many Bottlenose have been taken from this area for places like Sea World and other captive aquarium settings, that the Bottlenose are distrustful of humans. (Just as you and I would be if someone had taken family members away for their own profit). However, in the past couple of years, the Bottlenose seem to be taking more of an interest in us, and have been playing at the bow of our boats longer and there have even been a few close encounters with them. So, when we came across a pod of five Bottlenose, Stuart asked me if I wanted to give it a try. "Oh yes," I told him! Stuart, (with the underwater video camara) four others and I got into the water to see what the Bottlenose would do. While at first they hardly seemed to notice us, they didn't swim away and continued on with what they were doing, (mostly caressing each other and having sex. As Stuart said, "Look, Mr. Wiggly is out!) The Bottlenose are bigger than the Spotted Dolphins and their sonar is a higher pitch. As we hung out with the Bottlenose, they got closer and closer to us, and one of them in particular, swam very close to us, looking right at me and using his sonar. I was so excited at the honor of swimming with wild Bottlenose. I feel that in the future, we will be having much closer contact with them, and I can't wait!! They are so amazingly beautiful and I feel that a healing is taking place between the Bottlenose and the Humans.

Six of Stones - Restoring Balance. "As I am a steward of wealth, I am also guardian of the balance of wealth and must share where sharing seems right. I cannot forget the hard times that I have experienced and the help that came to me when I needed it most. I, too, will give to others whom I perceive to be in need of what I offer. As I teach my skills and share my creations, an inner balance is felt and I am at peace."

As I read this card, I thought about the Bottlenose, and how we are trying once again to restore a balance with them. I feel like we owe them so much, as they have brought dolphins into the consciousness of the world, and we need to give back to them!

June 19, 1998 - Since I am studying to get my captain's license, I went up to the wheelhouse and asked Stuart if I could drive the boat for a while. He pointed me in the direction of where the dolphins are, and I steered us on. It was about 10:00 am, a time we don't normally see many dolphins. I looked over to the port (left) side of the boat, and saw two dolphins jumping out of the water. "Dolphins!" I told Stuart, as I handed over the controls so I could go downstairs and get ready to get in with them. We jumped in and this is when I had my most incredible encounter to date. I saw a very large female dolphin, whom we had swam with earlier in the week and in the weeks before. We looked at each other and connected, from about 15 feet away. At the same moment, we swam towards each other, until we were less than a foot apart, nose to nose and eyes to eyes, and stayed that way, totally still, totally taking each other in and connecting on a very deep level. She was using her sonar on me, and I was totally lost in another dimension, with no conciousness of what was going on around me, there was only me and her in that moment. We stayed like that, perfectly still, until I had to go up and breath, (sometimes I hate when I have to breath!) I felt as if I could have stayed like that, just the two of us, forever. Later, others who had watched this encounter said that it had touched them on a very deep level too.

One of the things that is really great is that the Bottom Time II and Geoff, the captain I work for, have a very close working relationship out here, and if one boat finds dolphins and the other boat hasn't seen any, we call them over to share dolphins. Since we had been swimming with dolphins all morning and Geoff's boat hadn't seen any yet, we called them over. We all got in the water together and several dolphins swam with us. It was so great for me to see my two favorite captains, Geoff and Stuart in the water together. It was a very special connection for me, and for them too, since they had never actually gotten into the water together!

Three of Arrows - Listen to Your Heart: "I have all the information I need to come to my senses by paying attention to what is before me. I see that the world gives me whatever is needed if I simply open my eyes and ears. The world is giving my constant feedback on the thoughts I hold in my mind. It provides clues to where I might find what I am looking for. I pause. I listen. I follow my heart. Grandmother, guide me with the star-bright shine of your timeless way. I seek to bring plenty to my people. Your thoughts must travel through your heart. If your action began with attunement to the "I am" mind of the all-perfect universe, then what is coming to you now should be plenty of what you want. "

This card is very appropriate for me because when I write down things I want to manifest, I start many of my sentences with "I am....such as 'I am on the September dolphin swim.....I am living in the house at 123 Dolphin Street....I am with my soul mate...etc., etc. Writing things down as if I already have them is a very powerful practice, which I use to manifest things in my life. It sends messages out into the universe, as well as to your subconscious mind. You then add visualization, visualizing things as if you already have/are them. I believe you can create anything you want in your life with your mind. That's why it is so important to be choosy about what you think about!

June 20, 1998 - Today we visited the Atlantis Wall, also known as "The Bimini Road." It is a series of stones, similar in shape, that many people feel is the sunken land of Atlantis. I have been here many times, but today, more than ever, it seemed so alive!! I swam with a sea turtle (that was so very cool!) and connected with many of the fish that live there. I was swimming with Sherri and noticed that she, like me, seemed to be able to stay under water much longer here. I noticed that I was able to just hang out at the bottom for long periods of time, hardly thinking about taking a breath. When I talked to Sherri afterwards, she said that she felt that she was getting oxygen from her whole body, and I felt the same way. I love snorkeling here and look forward to my next visit to this magic place! We saw dolphins today, but we never got in the water with them, they had other things on their mind! Lots of lightening tonight, it was great sitting out on the deck with my friends listening to good music and watching the sky come alive!

Ace of Stones - Seed of Prosperity: Great Spirit, I accept your offering. I am thankful for these material gifts you place before me so abundantly. Mother Earth provides all that I need. The gifts of my ancestors lie within her arms. Your crystal of inspiration calls me to create from the wealth that surrounds me. The Grandmothers and Grandfathers have given their life and consciousness to Earth for us. This is why the mountains and plains are sacred. The native people ARE the land. Others died that we may live. The Earth is alive with their consciousness. Open your eyes and receive the gift of true understanding from which abundance comes. Prosperity is formed of right relationship to Earth. Open yourself to becoming aware of the wealth of resources surrounding you. Life is everywhere at your command."

June 21, 1998 - SUMMER SOLSTICE - Wow! Today we swam with about 40 dolphins!! It was starting to get late, and I was beginning to think that we might not see dolphins today, on the solstice. We started to slowly head in to where we dock when the call came out, "DOLPHINS!!". We got into the water with about 20 dolphins. I had bought a bright red scarf in Bimini and brought it into the water with me. I swam around with it to get the dolphins' interest, and then let it go. Four dolphins went after it, and one grabbed it in his mouth. He swam around with it with other dolphins following him, and I followed after, trying to get it back. I almost got it, but the dolphin, in the most graceful way, let go of the scarf and caught it on his pec fin. As another dolphin tried to get it from him, he again let the scarf flow back to his tail. I know they practice this with seaweed, and it was so beautiful and amazing to watch! I finally got the scarf back, and as I swam around with it, about 10 dolphins followed after me to get it back. I let it go again, and two dolphins got each end, and swam with the scarf in between them. Wow! One of the dolphins took it and swam around with it with me in tow, trying to get it back again. In all, I got it back 4-5 times, but I know it was only because they let me!! What fun to play this game with the dolphins!!!! While this was going on, a group of another 20 dolphins were under our boat, and swam under us as we played. They finally took the scarf away for the last time, and swam away with it, laughing. They continued to play with it as they swam away, sometimes flinging it into the air. I wouldn't be surprised if one of these days I see that scarf again! While most of our other swims had been slow, peaceful and deep, this encounter with the dolphins was definitely about FUN and PLAY!!! 

After we had swam with the dolphins for about an hour and a half, we got out and went to the bow of the boat. Our final moments with the dolphins were spent letting them ride on our bow and play with the boat. They rode with us almost all the way back to where we dock our boat, saying goodbye to us, for now!!! I can't think of a better way to end our time with the dolphins, giving back for all they had given us! The sun went down on the longest day of the year, and our hearts were filled with pure joy!

It was our last night and we gathered out on the deck to get personal messages from the dolphins from Penelope Smith. While she spoke to each person individually, the lightening behind her and all around us was some of the most spectacular I have ever seen! Everything was alive and full of incredible energy. As I watched the lightening I felt the power go through me and it put me into a deep trance/sleep. I was awoken because it was my turn for a personal message. Penelope, through the dolphins, told me that I was their beloved sister and they were with me always, guiding me on my path. I went to my cabin and got my journal because I could feel it was a very powerful night for manifestation. I wrote down, in detail, things that I wanted, as if I already had them. I went back upstairs as Penelope was finishing the readings for the others. We all joined hands and connected. The moment we let go, the lightening stopped, and it was gone for the rest of the night. Wow, this has really been an incredibly powerful night. I fell asleep totally content and happy with the world!

Nurturing Lodge of the Bowls - The Fruits of Devotion: "Many things I have been in the world, many roles I have played. Now I rest in the very place where you need me. I know the worldy ways. I have struggled with love and come through smiling. I can tell how each one I have loved has brought me into deeper understanding of you. I see that all of my time has become an ongoing act of devotion to you through all whom I serve. I see that this devotion brings blessings in many forms to my people. Thank you, Grandmother, Grandfather, for the wisdom of your lives you have shared. Enter the lodge of spiritual family and celebrate your lives together. This is the place and time to utilize your stores of nourishment for self and others. Embrace. Be in peace. Reflect. Enjoy."

June 22, 1998 - Time to go home. I know I will be back out here soon, but I also know how everyone else is feeling now as our boat heads back for Ft. Lauderdale. We have all connected with the dolphins and each other on a very deep level, and it is sad to have that end. Just as we entered the port area, a big pod of Bottlenose dolphins were around our boat, and we heard the last call over the speaker of "Dolphins!". Wow, they had come to say goodbye to us, and seemed to say, "See ya again soon!" Again, the Bottlenose were the ambassadors!

We went back to the hotel and said our goodbyes, and off I went to take Sherri home. As soon as I dropped her off, I felt so empty, because I had just left my new pod. But then I went over in my mind the events of the week, and I couldn't help but feel total joy for all that happened, and all the lives that had once again been touched by dolphins.

July 3, 1998 - So much happened on the Solstice trip and it is so great to have Sharon Callahan, my animal communicator/psychic to help me sort through all the messages and meanings. I told Sharon how I have grown so much on a spiritual level and how the dolphins have allowed me to release old emotions, blocks and struggles instantaneously, with joy and no processing and suffering. "Yes," she said. "You are part of the new paradigm, where you can release old karma and emotional baggage just like that. You just have to believe it. Just change your mind. You have a choice to do it through suffering or to do it through joy. You, Sierra, don't like all the traditional processes because you don't need them. There are still people caught in the old paradigm of suffering to grow is a good thing, but it simply isn't necessary anymore." That is why facilitating dolphin swims is so perfect for me, it is transformation without process and done through love, joy and happiness, not to mention fun! 

I asked Sharon about the "vertical thing" that the dolphins had been doing. "What I get is that this enables them to bring the divine energy right through their crown chakra. When the dolphins are doing that with you, they are helping you to receive that divine energy. I imagine you can feel that." Of course you can feel that! That is what I was experiencing when the dolphins were vertical under me. "The Earth's heartbeat has changed and the frequency has been stepped up. The dolphins are "tuning you up" so that your frequency matches the Earth's new frequency."

July 18, 1998 - In closing, I would like to thank each and every person who has come out to swim with the wild dolphins. And every person who will come out with us in the future. It can take a lot of courage to do this, because you might be giving up your life as you knew it when you make the commitment to swim with the dolphins. While all in joy and fun, the dolphins are serious about growth, and will call you to take on whatever they feel you can handle. All kinds of people have come out with us, and I never question why any certain person was called to be with the dolphins. I only know that everyone gets exactly what they need, if not right away, sometimes it happens after they get home, or six months later....the dolphins know who needs what when. I am honored to have the dolphins as my teachers and as my partners in transformation, with joy and love, one dolphin swim at a time!


PART III –PARALEGAL TO PARADISE
In August of 1998, in between dolphin trips in the Bahamas, a good friend and I went for a week’s vacation to Costa Rica. I have always been called by Costa Rica, when I was 18 I announced to my parents that I was going to move there. I was told that if I did, I would not be receiving any financial help from them, so that ended that. For the time being, at least. 

While traveling around Costa Rica we picked up the Tico Times, an English language weekly newspaper. I began to read it and was amazed when I came across an article about swimming with dolphins in Costa Rica. My heart began to pound. The article talked about how no one was actively running dolphin encounters in Costa Rica and how someone should do it. Could this possibly be a message for me, I thought? What a “coincidence” that this article had come out the very week I was visiting Costa Rica. I had not come to Costa Rica thinking about dolphins, it was a vacation with my friend to see the rainforest. My mind started to roll. The rest of our trip my friend and I entertained the possibilities of conducting dolphin swims in Costa Rica. It was perfect, the seasons were opposite of the Bahamas, I could be swimming with dolphins year round! I could do dolphin swims in the Bahamas May through October, and dolphin swims in Costa Rica November through May, living in Florida and flying around to wherever I had a trip. By the time we flew back to Florida, a plan was in the making.

But before I could leave the airport, something else amazing happened. We were riding in the tram that takes you to the customs area of the airport. I had on a shirt that said, “Salvemos Los Delfines” or “Save the Dolphins” in English. A lady standing directly across from me in the tram asked me, “Where did you get that shirt?” “By Arenal Volcano” I told her. “Do you like dolphins?”, she asked me. “Oh yes, they are my life. I take people to swim with dolphins in the Bahamas.” “Oh, well, my name is Maria del Mar and I am President of the Dolphin Foundation of Costa Rica”, she said. Again my heart began to pound. Again I felt like I was having a déjà vu. My girlfriend looked at me, nodding her head, already used to the miracles that happen to me. I told Maria I was thinking of setting up dolphin encounters in Costa Rica. We exchanged cards. I could not believe it. How was it that while I was thinking of doing something with dolphins in Costa Rica, the president of the Dolphin Foundation of Costa would be standing directly across from me in an airport tram? I then knew that something big was once again happening.

I got back to Florida and started to do some research about areas to conduct dolphin swims in Costa Rica. My idea was to plan a couple of trips there, see how it went, but stay in Florida and continue what I was doing in the Bahamas. But some crazy things started happening. 

EVERYTHING all of a sudden seemed to be about Costa Rica. I would turn on the TV and on the news there would be something about Costa Rica. I was listening to the radio, and in the middle of a song, were the words Costa Rica. I know I heard it because my friend who was with me heard it too. But the next time we heard this song, the words Costa Rica were not in it. The dolphins were playing tricks on me again. Then my landlord told me that he had lived in Costa Rica. My next door neighbor then told me he had done business in Costa Rica for years and took me to breakfast to tell me about it. Everyday, it seemed, someone mentioned Costa Rica to me. Crazy how the universe works!

My head was spinning. I had only moved to Florida five months earlier. I loved Coconut Grove, as it was a little mini-jungle in the middle of the city complete with Iguanas in the trees and macaws flying over head (escaped from the tourist attraction “Parrot Jungle” during a hurricane). I loved my condo, I loved being able to fly to Bimini to swim with dolphins in 20 minutes. I thought that I was going to stay in Florida for a long, long time. Could it be that my path was to now move to Costa Rica? All the signs seemed to be pointing in that direction. I have learned to follow those signs because they lead me down my divine path and to wonderful things. But where was I to go? I had no idea where there were dolphins, if there were dolphins that would swim with us, if there was a location suitable from which to conduct these encounters….. but I had that good feeling that I would be shown the way, as always. I made the decision that yes, I was going to do it! I was going to move to Costa Rica!!! After the decision was made, no one could stop me, not even my parents who were already sad that I had left California. But they had seen how things had fallen into place for me and were happy that I was so happy.

As soon as I made this decision, I received a telephone call from Maria del Mar, the President of the Dolphin Foundation, asking me to come and work for them. I told her I would love to be a part of it!! Wow, a job too!!!

I made plans to go back to Costa Rica the following month to look for “my spot”. I went alone, but made plans to travel part of the way through Costa Rica with a friend I had met through Maria del Mar. We rented a car and drove up the Pacific side of Costa Rica all the way to the border of Nicaragua. We saw lots of great places, even went and saw dolphins in one area, but it didn’t feel right. I ended up traveling most of the Pacific Coast during that trip, but went home a bit discouraged, as nothing was coming together. 

In the meantime, things between me and my new landlord in Florida were going sour. He hated my animals, especially my cats and my greenwing macaw, TJ, who likewise did not like him and would scream when he pulled up into the driveway. He gave me a month’s notice. I was under pressure now. I didn’t want to move twice, I wanted to go directly to Costa Rica. But I had nowhere to go.

I planned to Costa Rica again the next month, in October 1998 with a good friend of mine from Holland. I wrote a letter in my journal to God:

“Please guide me to the right places. Please guide me to where you want me to live and to where I should be working with you. Please guide me to the right people and the right connections. Please guide me at all times to my true destiny in Costa Rica. I am here to serve you and do whatever you want me to do. I do not depend upon persons or conditions for my prosperity. God is the source of my prosperity and you provide your own channels of supply to me now. I can clearly see that nothing or no one can stand between me and my own. I dissolve in my own mind and in the minds of all others any idea that my own can be withheld from me. That which is for my highest good now comes to me, and in my clear perception of truth, I welcome it! Nothing can oppose my good. No one can oppose my good. I now accomplish great things with ease. My life cannot be limited, my financial income cannot be limited. God in me now frees me from all limitation. I am rich in mind and manifestation now! The home I am seeking is seeking me and the law of good draws us together with love and understanding. Thank you Thank you Thank you!!!” 

We planned to go to Costa Rica’s South Pacific, the only place I had not yet been. But some very strange things stopped us from leaving on time. The first thing that happened was when we got to the ticket counter, my passport was nowhere to be found. Somehow, between the car and the counter, it had fallen out of my bag. I was told I could go to Costa Rica with a certified birth certificate, which I had at home. My house was only 20 minutes from the airport, but there was no way we would make it to catch our flight. The flight attendant told us there was a later flight and to come back for that one. We did. This time, we got to the ticket counter and my friend was told that she could not fly to Costa Rica without showing her return ticket to Holland. We had left this at my condo for safe keeping. We were not going to Costa Rica on this day. 

That night, I received a call from someone who worked at the airport. She had found my passport in the parking lot. She had not turned it in to security because she said that passports get lost that way, and had brought it home with her. There was no way for me to get it before the morning, but I had my birth certificate, so it didn’t matter. I made arrangements with her to pick it up when I got back.

We tried again the next morning, stating that if we weren’t able to board the plane, we were not going. We got through just fine. I do not know why we were delayed in this way, I can only think that perhaps it was so that I would meet someone I was supposed to meet or because of bad weather…..I still do not know for sure. But I know that everything happens for a reason and I do not question why.

We first went to the Golfo Dulce, which was beautiful. There were lots of dolphins there, we were told, but the weather was too rough to go out and see them. It still didn’t feel right. I didn’t have that “go for it” feeling at all.

We headed out for our last stop, Drake Bay. I was feeling a bit desperate. I had to be out of my condo in one month. Nothing had felt like it was the right place. During our travels, Hurricane Mitch had arrived in Costa Rica, so when we arrived in Drake Bay, I had no idea what it was like because we were so wet and cold all I could think about was getting dry. We never did get out on the ocean that trip, but one of the local guides told me that there were lots of dolphins in the area….. I don’t know why but this light went on in my head. I JUST KNEW THIS WAS IT!! 
I asked about rentals in the area and was taken to a couple of places that weren’t my style. I asked about rent and found out that my guide was taking me to places that rented for about $100 a month, no wonder! I said we could raise that a bit…..and then he took me to another property. He explained that the owner lived in Canada and that he had a caretaker there. It was pouring rain as we went. When we got there, we slipped and slided up the hill to a blue tarp enrobed house. We went inside to find the place in a total mess. But I saw the potential…..10 acres, on a point, in the rainforest with an ocean view on three sides. WOW WOW WOW!!!
At the house, along with other locals, was this very cute guy who had a dolphin earring in his ear. He said his name was Villa (pronounced Veeya). He said he liked my dolphin jewelry too and I told him (in my limited Spanish, I still had only one semester of Spanish in seventh grade at this point) that I had lost a lot of dolphin jewelry in the ocean. He said he had too. 

We left Drake Bay and Costa Rica and when I got back to the States, I called the owner of the property to see if he wanted to rent the property and for how much. I almost fell out of my car (I was driving my friend to the airport at the time) when he said he would rent it for $500 a month. I was expecting at least $1,000!!! So, we made up a rental agreement and it was finalized.

Oh my God, I was really moving to Costa Rica!!!! Now came all the arrangements on how to get me, my stuff, and my animals into the country……but that all went very smoothly. I made arrangements to live in Escazu for the first month (a suburb of the capital, San Jose) so that I could get bank accounts, make some connections and wait for my rental agreement to start in December.

First, I needed to sell a lot of stuff. I wrote in my journal:
My belongings are sold to the right people at the right price. All things are sold with ease. I release all belongings to their highest good. All belongings go to their rightful owners. They belong to somebody else now.

On November 30, 1998, only three months after my first visit to Costa Rica, I left Florida to start my next new life. I had written my journal:

The plane is on time. My belongings and animals arrive safely and undamaged. Customs waives us right through. There are no problems of any kind. 

And that is exactly how it happened! Everything arrived safely and undamaged, I never got stopped even for a minute in Customs even though I was importing a greenwing macaw. It all went smoothly and perfectly!

We settled into our temporary home in Escazu. I went about the business I had to do, one of which was to get an analog cellular line. Because Drake Bay is so remote, only the three watt bag phones (the ones that were used when cell phones first came out) would work properly, and they are analog. I had purchased the analog phone while still in Florida, but was warned by the salesperson, “You will never be able to get an analog line in Costa Rica. They do not give them out anymore as everything is now digital.” I went to the phone company in Costa Rica. I was told, “You will not be able to get a analog line, we do not give them out anymore.” I went home and wrote in my journal, “I have an analog line. There are no problems getting this analog line.” The next day I went back to the phone company and asked to talk to a manager. I brought my brochure with me and spoke to a very nice man. I told him we were doing research on dolphins and whales in Drake Bay and an analog line was very important. In five minutes I had an official letter stating that I was allowed to have an analog line and brought it up to the front desk and waaaalaaaa, I had an analog line. NEVER tell me NEVER!!!!

I was about two weeks away from moving to Drake Bay when I got a call from the owner of the property. Someone had made an offer on the property and he was going to sell it!!!! What was I going to do? Here I was thinking I was moving in two weeks, in a temporary house with five animals!!! If I wanted to live on this property, I was going to have to buy it, but with what money????? I was in a temporary panic, the kind that I forget all I know on how to manifest things. But it didn’t last long and I got to writing in my journal:

I own the property. There are no problems with the purchase of this property. I have all the finances I need to purchase this property. I am a rich child of God and am completely provided for. If this property is mine by divine right, I have it. I cannot do this by myself but God can and is creating miracles here and now. Thank you! Thank you! Thank You!

The next day, I went to the attorney’s office who was handling the sale. I brought a letter of my intention to buy with a payment schedule. And I also brought all my pictures of dolphins. I explained to him what I wanted to do with the property. He said he would talk to the owner. I had a very anxious day waiting to hear. Finally I got the call from the attorney. “We are going to sell the property to you, Sierra.” “Why?” I asked. “Because of the dolphins.  We like what you want to do with the property,” he told me. Wow!!! The dolphins did it again.

However, the excitement was short lived as the following day the attorney called me again to say that the other potential buyer was very upset because he had given the attorney a check first and he wanted the chance to come up with a higher offer. I told the attorney that I wasn’t going to get in a bidding war, I couldn’t, and that my offer stood. I hung up the phone and prayed. And of course, wrote in my journal:

“God is my attorney. I call upon the Law of Divine Justice. God makes a way where human sense says there is no way. I bless the situation. I bless the other buyer. If this property is mine by divine right, I have it. The divine plan of my life is manifesting for me now quickly and in peace, Thank You Thank You Thank You!

The next day the attorney called to say that even though the other buyer had made an offer $10,000 more than mine, the owner still wanted to sell to me because my payment schedule was more workable for him. I hung up the phone and cried. Once again, God had created miracles for me, just because I had asked and trusted!!!!!

Someone I have not mentioned until now is Jerry. Jerry was a captain on one of the boats I was working with in the Bahamas and we became good friends. Jerry lived in the Florida Keys and had lost all his belongings in a recent hurricane. He called me up right before I was leaving for Costa Rica and asked if I needed any help. I was very happy to have Jerry come along with me because it would have been overwhelming to try to start up all by myself. Jerry is still here and is now known as Jerry of all Trades because he can fix or “Jerry Rig” just about everything. Jerry has brought us from not having even any electricity at all, to a well-functioning hotel. He is a true friend.

When we arrived in the late afternoon of December 29, we came across the bay to an amazing purple sunset and I knew I had found my true home. Ten acres of ocean front property, on a point, waves crashing on two sides, and monkeys, toucans, iguanas and all the animals of the Discover Channel in the trees and surrounding jungle I still had never gotten out onto the ocean. But I was running on trust and it had worked so well for me up to this point.

Our initial plan was to run dolphin encounters and have our guests stay at other hotels in the area, which we did for a short time. But Jerry and I found that we really missed “hanging out” with our guests, and didn’t feel we had enough time with them by just going out on the tours. So, we decided to become a small eco lodge. We erected three tents on platforms, and started to bring people to Drake Bay to see the rainforest and dolphins. And learn about running a hotel. We became Delfin Amor (Dolphin Love) Eco Lodge.

I had purchased a small boat to start getting us out on the water. We traveled to different areas looking for dolphins. We saw dolphins every time we went out and eventually discovered a large group of 500 or more. I was in paradise!! In the Bahamas, we always see very small pods of dolphins, sometimes two, sometimes 10, and rarely, 40 or so. But 500!! I had never seen so many dolphins in one place!! I just couldn’t believe what I had magically and effortlessly stepped into. But of course I could believe it, the path had been so magical through all the rapid changes in my life and now, somehow, I found myself surrounded by dolphins! In my front yard!

As we explored the waters surrounding Drake Bay, we came to discover that there are over 25 species of dolphins and whales that live here or pass through. We have the longest season of humpback whales in the world as we get migrations from both North America and South America. We have had the pleasure to meet Orcas, Psuedo Orcas, Pilot Whales, Humpback Whales, Sei Whales, Fin Whales, Rough Tooth Dolphins, Common Dolphins, Spinner Dolphins, Bottlenose Dolphins, Risso’s Dolphins, and of course, our most common friends, the Pantropical Spotted Dolphins. There are thousands of them here!!!!! Within 10 minutes of the property!!

Along with all the dolphins and whales we have discovered, we have also found that there is a lot of commercial fishing in the area. Long lines, shrimpers and the whole dolphin/tuna netting happens here (we are in the Eastern Tropical Pacific, after all). We decided we needed to protect the area and create a marine sanctuary. We talked about becoming a non-profit foundation, but found that it was a very expensive and lengthy process in Costa Rica. But very quickly, magic happened again…..

In April of 2000, we rescued a striped dolphin who was trying to beach herself. I wrote an article about it for a local paper. Several days later, Maria del Mar, the lady who I had met in the tram after my first trip (the President of the Dolphin Foundation of Costa Rica), called me to say that the foundation was falling apart because she couldn’t get anyone to help her. She wanted to GIVE ME the foundation because we were doing such great work. Just like that, we were able to become a non-profit foundation, without the cost and a minimum of paperwork.  

I knew then that I was sent here by God and the dolphins and whales to share their divine nature with others. Everything had fallen into place so magically and easily because they want me to help spread their messages of joy and divine ways of being.  

I later founded The Vida Marina Foundation and our data collection and participation and publication in scientific conferences has furthered the reality of creating a protected marine area off the Osa Peninsula.

I decided to close Delfin Amor Eco Lodge to the public and on May 1, 2007 because running a hotel was not my true dream, and am presently working to create a wellness center on the property. I am also working on a coffee table book to showcase the beautiful photos they allowed me to take as we connected, and to share their inspired messages with the humans who want to hear them.  I am also creating other inspired dolphin and whale projects, and of course once again providing trips to swim with the dolphins of Bimini, Bahamas and the humpback whales of Silver Bank, Dominican Republic.

This has truly been a magical, divine path and I thank God, the Angels above, and the Angels of the Sea for all they have done to make my wildest dreams come true. I am a messenger of nature. I am a messenger of the dolphins and whales in particular. How cool is that? I am truly blessed to share my life with the divine dolphins and whales... and all of you!!




Thursday, June 30, 2011

More Lessons from the Dolphins - Welcome to the Human Pod Experience

I (re)learned an important lesson from the dolphins on my recent trip to Bimini which I know was shown to me at this time for important work I am to do… and who I am to always be for others in my human pod.

The dolphins kept stressing to me that this trip was about the "Human Experience" and while I didn't understand fully at the time, I am getting it more and more as the ripples and waves from this trip gently affect all aspects of my life.

When a dolphin is in a physical crisis, the whole pod surrounds them, lifts them up and swims with them into shallow waters. They don’t tell the dolphin in crises that they created their own reality, their physical pain is not really real anyway, shift NOW and that the rest of the pod shall swim over to their place of high vibration and wait for the injured dolphin to get into vibrational alignment and come to them. They don’t say, "sorry, I held you up yesterday, I need to take care of myself now." No. The dolphins stick with their pod mates until the crises is over, one way or the other. They demonstrate Unselfish Service to their pod mates for the good of the whole pod.

When people are in crises, don’t expect & push them to take quantum leaps into joy & yell from the top of the crest of the wave how good it is at the vibrational top. This creates feelings of helplessness, drowning & even anger because they are not in the place to hear it, they are in survival mode.

Acknowledge where they are and that it’s okay; help them get to a place of feeling safe both physically and emotionally, hold out a hand/fin and help them with loving increments of relief to the shore… actually BECOME the shore for them… including physical support if necessary.

In my human experience, now from both sides of the ocean, compassion, physical support (action) and empathy are always better than speaking law of attractionisms from a distant and disconnected “I’m up here, you are down there” mentality, especially when one is in physical fear.

Although my intentions were always good and I am a very loyal and solid friend, I’ve done this a few times to people I care about and now I see where I was not following my compassionate human/dolphin pod instinct and inner guidance… and I instead did what I had been told is right by outside sources. Sometimes outside sources, especially non physical ones, do not have access to the real human experience. I see through that now. I can hold my vibration no matter what, in no matter what circumstance, and especially when someone needs my help. That's what pod mates do.
I can now see why others sometimes lashed out at me when they were in physical and/or emotional pain. I wasn’t reaching out in a way that could really help during their crises. I didn’t swim them to shore, I left them to paddle on their own. Of course they were flailing about, struggling not to drown, trying to find something floating by to hold on to.

It never really did feel good (duh!) and although I thought I was doing what was right and best for them at the time, I am glad I can see that isn’t who I really am and can permanently shift it now.  I will do what I can to get them to level, safe ground and THEN spew my shift your vibration shpeal from where they can hear; from a safe place on shore.

It feels so much better to help someone, to act, AND to “hold the vibrational space.” It’s not one or the other. It’s both. I can stay in my high vibration and still provide physical and emotional support without buying into the fear. I can BE THERE for my human pod, whatever needs to be done, no matter what. Unconditional Love and Service to Others. Like the dolphins in their pods. It works for humans and dolphins alike!!!

I AM one of the pod, after all, the beautiful Human Pod I share this amazing planet with. And I want to be a stellar pod mate to others. This I promise. And so it is.

Amen and thank you, O’ great Universe and dolphins for the reminder, the wake up call, the shifts, the divine and subtle bliss I feel from who I have now become!!

Open Heart Surgery, Dolphin Style

There is not much I fear in this life. I am a super independent woman living in the remote rainforest, leaping tall vines in a single bound. I am Super Shifter, able to shift so called contrast faster than a speeding locomotive.

But needles? Doctors? Hospitals? Medicine? FEAR!!!!

For this reason, I avoided way too long getting my wisdom teeth pulled. I endured the rush of pain any time I took a cold drink and learned to chew on one side of my mouth to not disturb a very loose tooth. I was more willing to endure pain and inconvenience than go to the dentist and face my fear. The fear of feeling fear and more pain was stronger than the actual pain.

However, the actual pain was growing, even room temperature water now bothered me and I received a vision from the dolphins of diving down with them on my upcoming trip to Bimini and feeling great pain from the pressure. I decided to bite the bullet so to speak and go to the dentist. For the dolphins. For me. I mean, c’mon already; I am Sierra the Super Shifter! I can do this. I can shift my thoughts and this won’t be so bad. Maybe even okay. I made an appointment for two days before my flight to Florida.

I flew into San Jose from Drake Bay and went straight to the dentist. My knees were weak already and I kept taking big breaths. I held on tightly to my Zero Point Energy pendant as they took x-rays. I closed my eyes and turned up my 528 frequency music as they prepped me for the dentist to come in, trying to hold back the dread and fear tears that were wanting to come. Then I felt this woosh of dolphin energy and I thought “Yay, the dolphins are here to help me get through this.” And then I realized that the dentist had just walked into the room and that it was him! I got a dolphin for a dentist!! Thank you, Universe.

I immediately relaxed. He as not only pure dolphin energy, he was HOT. He looked deeply into my eyes… he whispered to me of how it makes him feel to swim with the dolphins… the joy, the ecstasy, the freedom… oh ya baby…yes, yes, yes… he gently told me to open wide… and then he stuck it in, slowly, maybe unsure at first but then harder, faster, with confidence…. yup, he stuck that first big needle into the upper palette of my mouth. Gulp.  I seriously don’t think it was as good for me as it was for him.

It’s funny, but it’s not even the actual pain, which stung but wasn’t excruciating, it’s the “idea” of it. The “idea” of needles makes me shutter. And shuttering I was, dolphin doctor or not and the tears started to flow… drip, drip, drip, a steady stream down my face.

Poor guy, he felt so bad, and the thing is, the Novocain was in effect, I wasn’t feeling pain, but, but, but... well, you know, this whole “story” I’ve made up in my mind about doctors and medical procedures and needles.  I was in a total “dental breakdown”, right in front of the hot dolphin doctor. But I didn’t care.

I had to learn to shift my thoughts here too, the last frontier of fear.

The oral violation act was finally over and Dr. Dolphin tells me he wants me to take antibiotics for three days because I am going out of the country and I resist that too but he insists. I concede and agree to take them, still a bit miffed that . It’s only three days.

But by now, I’ve done a lot of resisting. I resisted going in the first place, I resisted the procedure with shaking and tears and now I was resisting taking antibiotics but doing it anyway.

Tsk, Tsk, Tsssssk. Law of Duh 101. That’s the worst thing you can do.

You can take the antibiotics and say, “These pills are doing exactly what my body needs them to do in perfect balance and harmony and my body easily and peacefully accepts this medicine,” and take them without resistance.

But my vibration was more like “I hate medicine, these are going to kill all my good bacteria too, this is why I don’t go to doctors, etc. etc. etc., bla bla bla, I don’t like this at all but I’m going to do it anyway.” 

Baaaaaad vibration! Mixed Vibration! Split Vibration!

Either take them with joy, or don’t take them with joy… but don’t take them with resistance or not take them and wish you did!! Duh, Sierra. Basic Law of Duh. DO NOT RESIST!! But resist I did. Big time.

I wasn’t leaving for Florida for two days and was invited to stay at a most interesting place in the outskirts of San Jose. After coming in through the metal sliding gates, I was given a tour of the large house decorated in Nouveau Age (a decorating term I made up for that “one altar too many” look) and was told the man of the house was not feeling well for a few days now and they needed to be “clearing the energies.” I could see why. Something about the energy here had me on the edge. It was a strange vibe of the “appearance” and “effort” to  be love and light with underlying tones of low vibrations… like someone had sprayed perfume in order to try to cover the smell of a deadly fart. :))

I asked how I could open the gate to get out to the street and was told with a big crooked toothed smile, “You won’t need to leave, just walk around the property.” Rocky Horror Picture Show’s Time Warp starts playing in my head and wonder how did I miss that they have an uncanny resemblance to an older Riff Raff and Magenta?? Damnit Janet!!

I go into my room, close the door, put on high vibing music and talk to high vibing friends. I have NO PAIN from the tooth extraction. My fears were all for nothing. YOU CAN’T TOUCH ME!!

On the second day I am told they are not feeling well due to the “outside energies” and am I okay, do I feel that, am I okay???? And I say that I am feeling pretty darn good, in fact better than I would have thought due to the dental work… and I go to my room and pack my bag as my thoughts are now about clearing my butt out of there during their fourth “clearing of the energies” session since I arrived.  As I hear the “I am that I am, I am that I am, I am that I am” chanting coming from the other room once again, I write and post this Facebook status:

If you are standing strong in your high vibration and heart space, no outside influences and energies can affect you and come into your "space." Don't look outside yourself if you are not feeling good. Don't blame others or the "energies" around you. It is only from within, and the vibration that we put out that determines how we feel. In other words, YA CAN'T TOUCH THIS!!! ♥♥

I giggled as I knew they read my Facebook page and joked with my friend Steph over skype that maybe I should lock my door. But a funny thing happened. They both “liked” my status and even commented on it and when I finally braved leaving my room, the energy was totally different, everyone magically felt better and the vibe was much higher. So I stayed.

The next morning their property caretaker drove me to the airport. In the car I started to feel this pressure in my chest and I broke out into a sweat. I felt dizzy. I thought, “OMG they’ve poisoned me because of my Facebook status,” LOL… but wait, seriously, this isn’t going away. Was I being taken to Dr. Frank-N-Furter? Wait, that’s silly, Sierra. You are not playing out Rocky Horror Picture Show. What is going on here???

Maybe my grand plan of Happy, Healthy, Hot, Happy, Healthy Dead is playing out. I have never seen myself getting old. I always kinda planned to come in strong, shine my light as bright as possible and then exit stage left while I still feel great and look good doing it.

But I gave up that plan when my brother died eight years ago and I knew I couldn’t do that to my parents. Not both of us. But maybe I changed my mind too late.

Maybe my years of smoking and yo yo dieting had caught up with me. I thought I had avoided heart and lung damage because of my beliefs and high vibration, but maybe that was a bunch of crap and I was about to pay the price.

We got to the airport and I stepped out of the car. The fresh air helped, I weakly smiled to the driver and went inside. Standing in the ticketing line I felt like I was in the twilight zone. My vision was tunnel-y and strange; I was dizzy, weak, shaky. I called my mom. I knew what I was starting by calling her, she worries for nothing let alone for something like this, but I needed her. I didn’t want to have a heart attack right there in the middle of strangers. I didn’t know what was happening, but I knew that I felt VERY strange and that something was very off.

I got through ticketing and walked in slow motion through security and to the gate. I had to seriously consider going to a hospital and missing my flight. What was the right thing to do? The dolphins won out and I decided to take my chances and at least get to Florida. I was scared and all the fears came up of having a heart attack on the plane and them having to land somewhere… but between Costa Rica and Florida there is mostly just ocean. I had to do it. I prayed. This was VERY new to me. I can overcome any adversity and shift my thoughts, but being fearful for my own life, having my body acting in this way, fearing having a heart attack among strangers was out of my realm of experience. It brought me to my knees. I started talking to my angels, to my Grandmother, to God.

The flight went by quickly and I was feeling a bit better. I got my rental car and drove to Boca Raton and to my friend Christopher. She was very concerned and gave me capsicum liquid concentrate which is great for the heart. It felt good to be with my beautiful sister and our animal family.

I was feeling better and more relaxed now that I was in the United States and with friends. Everything was good and the symptoms seemed to have subsided until about 10 at night when the dizziness and weird feeling came again and I had to go outside and breathe. I decided the best thing to do was to go to sleep and see how I felt in the morning. This was not good. Why was it coming and going? The not knowing what was going on was probably the most frightening of all. But knowing might mean going to the doctor and God forbid, the “H” word (hospital).

The next morning I felt much better. I went and ran some errands and decided to get a hotel room close to the airport so that when I picked up Stephanie from the airport I didn’t have to drive all the way back to Boca Raton. Steph came in, we went shopping to get the food for the Bimini trip and I was feeling like whatever it was had passed. I had gone the whole day feeling good.

But then the next morning it came back as we were getting ready to go to the airport for the short  flight to Bimini. The pressure in my chest, the dizziness, the weakness. I was really frightened now and not sure what to do. My head was telling me it was crazy to continue on to Bimini with potential heart problems, knowing there was only a clinic there… but my heart and soul couldn’t bear the thought of NOT going to the turquoise waters, seeing my dolphin family and hanging with my new human pod. I had been looking forward to this trip for soooo long. I didn’t want to let down the people who had signed up. I didn’t want to let down Stephanie who was my co-leader of the trip and had never been to Bimini and wouldn’t know what to do. And she had been through a house fire that week and if she could pull it together and come anyway, I could too.

I was completely torn. I was still very scared because there were signs it was not over. Heart racing, dizziness, weakness, left arm hurting. My body screamed to stay back, my mind said NO WAY should I go on this trip in this condition but my heart and soul and the dolphins won out again. Having Stephanie there helped. She assured me that she would take care of me and that we were in this together. I also knew that my human pod would take care of me. Yup. I was going on to Bimini, heart fluttering and all.

I felt so bad and embarrassed that Stephanie had to carry my backpack as I didn’t have the strength to do it. Sickness has always been a sign of weakness to me and I remember that as a young kid I would hide under the table when I was sick because I didn’t want anyone to see me. I felt so defeated, so dependent. I really like to take care of myself being the super independent jungle woman and all.

I could see that my lessons were already starting. I was facing letting go of having to do it all myself and allowing others to help me. No one goes to Bimini and with the dolphins and comes out the same. I had been feeling the intense change in the air for weeks. I knew this trip was going to be very BIG. The energy there calls us to shift in big ways and I knew that going in, but I had no idea how it would unfold. I certainly was not expecting heart problems!!

In the Ft. Lauderdale airport while waiting for our flight to Bimini, my heart started pounding again, I got really cold and again questioned my decision to go on to Bimini… but the dolphins and that turquoise water won out. Surely I would be okay. I was among friends and Source always takes care of me, everything works out perfectly and I don’t have to worry about the details. Even if that means the plan is to die out there with the dolphins.

I had to start really looking at my view of death and where I stand and where my fears lie. What was I afraid of? I am not afraid to die. I KNOW we don’t really die and I can feel the bliss and love and the coming home and release of resistance that comes with dying. But I knew I didn’t want to die alone or among strangers, I didn’t’ want pain and suffering and doctors and hospitals and I didn’t want to die before my parents and put them through losing their second child. In other words, I didn’t want to die right here, right now, like this.

And I was getting increasingly frustrated with myself in my inability to shift when the chest pressure would come on. I knew I had to control my thoughts, but because of the fear of having a heart attack and the not knowing and all the other fears that were creeping in, I found myself in another unknown territory… unable to shift my focus in 10 minutes or less. And the more I got frustrated with myself and fought the fear, the more I couldn’t shift and was fearful. I was in a state of resisting the fear which brought more fear. Where was Sierra the super shifter? I couldn’t find her, that frustrated and confused me and that started the whole fearful cycle all over again. I felt like I was standing in quicksand.

We met a couple of the people from our trip at the airport and I could feel the bond between us lock into place. I could feel the bigger picture start to form, the totally intertwined perfection of everything that was about to happen. I could see and feel glimpses of it, but the actual unfolding lay before us. I just knew it was BIG for all concerned.

We got to the island, met the rest of the group and I was feeling pretty good but there was always this background of fear going on, either a loud buzz or a faint distant one, but always there.  I was definitely not my Super Sierra self and I knew that it showed, at least to me, which made it worse.  We had to tell the group what was going on and I just wanted to shrink into a corner. It was so hard for me to admit that something was wrong health wise, me who always hid under the table when sick as a child, embarrassed to show a sign of weakness and humanness. As much as I wanted to hide under the table, there was nowhere to go but into surrender and trust. I had to trust my human pod. I had to surrender to my non physical pod.

I so wanted to be in full high vibration for this group. I so wanted to lead this dolphin trip as I have so many others, from a place of power and connection so that I could be there for the others when they went through the things that often come up on these trips. Never ever did I imagine that I would be the one who needed the emotional and physical support and a part of me felt as if I had failed them.

This is so unlike me, but I was definitely not myself and more and more I was losing access to my usual thoughts, my direct connection to infinite intelligence that would have told me that everyone is getting exactly what they need, that I can relax and trust that all is in perfect divine order. Further down into the quicksand I go. I felt shaky and unsure.

We got out on the water in the afternoon and as I shared with AJ, our only male on the trip, about the sparkling lights I see in the direction the dolphins are, he saw them too. And there they were, just where the sparkly lights said they were. We had a joyful dolphin jump and jump for us and we also met Tilly, a dolphin who had lost most of his dorsal fin, probably from a shark. I felt all of us feel sympathy for Tilly and he didn’t stay around for long. We had a beautiful day out on the water and returned to Beautiful Bimini as the sun set into the blue turquoise waters.

I mostly feel good for the rest of the evening except the pressure started to come on near the end of dinner but not bad. I breathed through it and it eventually subsided.

The next morning we had a group session scheduled and after Steph led us into a relaxed state, I received and shared a message for the group from Tilly, the dolphin with the missing dorsal fin from the day before.

Tilly spoke to us about how he does not see his body as broken, only whole and how we need to do the same. Tilly emphasized to us how we are already whole there is nothing we have to seek or do. We all felt the dolphins swirling around us and off we went to see them in the physical.

We soon came upon dolphins and even though our captain said that he didn’t think they’d swim with us, I told him to let me into the water.  Another pod mate and I got into the water and the dolphins stopped feeding and came right over. It was such an amazing and intense connection, eye to eye, belly to belly, twirling and spiraling. And then I felt it. One of the dolphins sonared me from behind, right through my back to my lungs, heart and chest and I felt the buzz as they opened up, open heart surgery dolphin style. Wowzers.

The rest of our human pod got into the water, and the dolphins did their thing, weaving between everyone, giving each and every person their special brand of love and light.

One of my greatest joys is seeing the transformation in people after they have swam with the dolphins. The joy and light in their faces, the vibration that they are emitting; it is a special gift to experience and I was basking in that, especially after my dolphin heart surgery. I was buzzzzzzzing and so were most of our human pod. THAT’s what it’s all about.  There is nothing like a dolphin JOY BUZZ!!

Our human pod was excited and we had a high energy dinner. I was feeling good and thought the heart ordeal was over. But right before going to bed, it came on again, and strong. I had pressure in my chest, my vision was blurry, I was weak and shaky. Everyone had gone to bed except Steph and when she saw me she knew I was in trouble and asked if I wanted her to go and get Sharmini who is a Reiki practitioner.

I knew I had to let my embarrassment and fear of “bothering” others go because I needed help. See, I hate to inconvenience people. I hate to make them go out of their way or stay up or do things they wouldn’t have had had to do for me. I felt embarrassed because these are people who looked up to me and came because of who I am at my best, or at least who they perceived me to be.  And I really had to let go of that and surrender.

And I knew Sharmini had stayed up late the night before and was tired. But the fear took me beyond my embarrassment now and I said, “Yes, go get her.”

I was powerless and I hated it. I did not have access to my magic. I can change weather patterns, create blue lightening and earthquakes, manifest all kinds of things out of nowhere, I know who is calling, I know who is gonna post, I know just what to say but I had access to none of that while in fear for my life… and that scared and frustrated me even more. Where was I???

The three of us sat on my bed and held hands and talked about my fears, my fear of getting old, my fear of not looking hot anymore, my fear of losing control, my fear of not fulfilling my responsibility to the group, my fear of letting go and letting others help me, my fear of what I’ve done to my body, my fear of doctors, hospitals, needles, my fear to ask for help, fear of being vulnerable, etc. etc. etc. They were ALL coming up for me. Open heart surgery, remember? They spoke to me of how it is okay to be vulnerable, it’s okay to ask for help, to let go. I felt loved and supported and I agreed to do that. I said, “I am in trouble here, I need help, I am scared, I need to go to a doctor, I physically cannot take care of the group right now, I surrender, help me.”

Whew. That was a big one… a really really big one for me. I have never been so frightened in my life. I was not only physically not well, but I had just given up all control of the situation and had become more vulnerable than I ever had been… ever.

Sierra Raw and Unplugged.

But now that I had given in and become completely vulnerable, I got to face more fears and that was what happens if people don’t meet my expectations when I make myself completely vulnerable. What if I put myself out there in a vulnerable position and people don’t respond how I would respond? What if their idea of what should happen is different than mine?  How many conditions will I put on being vulnerable, like “I’ll only be vulnerable if….?”  How much power do I give away to others by making my success at being vulnerable depend on how they act and respond? Yikes.

Oh yes. Just fricken bring it on, Universe.  Bring it all up, have we missed anything?  Any more fears to deal with??
Oh Sierra. You know better than that. It had only just begun!!

I called my theta healing, matrix energetics friend Kevin and told him what was going on. “HELP ME,” I said.  He said, “Well, you know there is a perfectly healthy you in another dimension.”

I think my exact words were “Well, F@*%’n Beam Me UP, Scotty.”

See, I had no access to thoughts like that, healthy me’s in parallel universes. And it’s something I might have said to someone in the same situation too standing in the Sierra of Power. But I was not in a place of being able get to the other healthy me’s as I was stuck in the fear of the present me which felt like her heart was about to explode.

I was sinking deeper and deeper into the quicksand and what I needed was for someone to give me a hand and at least help me get one foot on solid ground and THEN I could access the other things like parallel universes and healing thoughts. I could not compute “Sierra be the light that you are, embrace your divine self, let go of the fear, ” when I felt like I was dying and was in fear. I needed to physically feel safe.

Everyone wanted me to shift and be the me they know I am, and I know exactly from there they stood, and that is in love for me and wanting me to be okay, but I needed to acknowledge the fear and where I presently was first. I needed everyone to stop expecting and trying to push Sierra the Super Shifter and let me be Sierra the scared and fearful one going through some big shit. I needed to face the fear, not run and try to super shift from it and I needed to feel safe and protected and supported while doing it. I needed to feel safe to be afraid to shift from being afraid if that makes any sense. It does to me now.  I couldn’t shift and find the thoughts I needed to find until I didn’t feel like I was sinking anymore.

And now I knew I needed to get to the clinic/hospital/doctor and that made me sink even further into fear. Then someone reached out an understanding hand that pulled me out of the quicksand… and for that I am forever appreciative.

I finally got to the small clinic on Bimini with two of my podmates with me and I felt relief when my blood pressure and EKG tests came back okay. The doctor told me I was not in imminent danger of a heart attack which was of course great news and I relaxed. He said that it very well could be a reaction to the antibiotics I took, which of course wouldn’t surprise me since I took them with such resistance. He told me to go to a doctor as soon as I got to the States and while I was relieved, there was still the unknown of why I was feeling like I did. I was still weak and shaky and the pressure was still there, but when the symptoms came on, I was no able to control them better as I didn’t have the immediate fear that I was about to die of a heart attack which added panic to the whole soup of fear. BIG DIFFERENCE.

I had leverage. I had some solid ground to stand on. And this has given me the most amazing shift and understanding about the real authentic human experience that has changed me forever and how I will help others.

I remember a few years back many rainforest animals began to die and no one knew what was going on. Monkeys were dying, we saw lots of sick, dying and dead toucans, a sloth died on my doorstep and I sank into a two day depression. Before that I had no sympathy for anyone who was depressed because I couldn’t understand how you just don’t change your thoughts. Like Duh!! But for two days, I could not find better feeling thoughts and I felt so tired and well, depressed! I finally was able to snap myself out of it, but I came away with a new compassion and understanding for others who have symptoms of depression. 

That’s what had happened now. I thought of times when I have not had an understanding of why people can’t move from their present state of unhealthy thinking and fear and have spewed my spiritual stuff at them and couldn’t understand why they couldn’t hear me. I was speaking the truth, after all!!! What I needed to do was to throw a rope, hold out a hand and get them to a level, stable ground from which they can shift and then hear me. Mind you, that does NOT mean to enable destructive behavior or buy into the fear. It means to help with the immediate physical needs, get done what physically needs to get done, to acknowledge and have compassion for the fear and for where they are, and that can get someone to a place of choice and power again. It means to be a Stabilizer as well as an Uplifter when needed and necessary. A grounding, stabilizing force.

I thought about a thread that was on the the Abe Forum a few years back and someone asked if you came upon a drowning girl, would you save her? I was surprised to see how many said, “I would not save her, she made her vibrational bed and now she has to lie in it.” I never want to use the Law of Attraction or some spiritual belief systems to lose my compassion for where people are and withhold my physical ability to reach out and help someone in need. I am a compassionate human being and we’re all in this together.

I went for a walk to the beach and felt the dolphins come in around me. I heard this:

“ All the "spiritual" jargon and talk doesn't really mean anything if you don't mean what you say, don't do what you say and especially if you use your spiritual lingo as a way to not treat people with kindness and compassion... It's really about how you treat yourself and how you treat others... and the rest is just a bunch of bla bla bla!!! This is about the human experience and how you show up for each other and who you are to each other. This is not about going on your solo spiritual journey; this is about community and needing one another and helping one another. Like a dolphin pod. It is okay to ask for help, it’s okay to need others, just let go of how it should be, what surrendering and being vulnerable should be. If the one you thought would show up doesn’t, someone else will. Let go. Trust. Let everyone off the hook, especially yourself.  You don’t have to be everything; you are supposed to need others, to operate in a flowing pod of love.”

Man, those dolphins always know just what to say. We had the most amazing people on our trip, the perfect pod, everyone played their role perfectly and I realized that part of what happened was that I needed to sit back and get my lessons so that others could shine and be the light of the party. Every single person got what they signed up for and more. I didn’t have to be running the show, it was the dolphins the whole time anyway. It was so amazingly divinely orchestrated I can only smile when I think about it now. There was such amazing growth on this trip for all and none of us will ever forget it. The tears, the laughter, the joy, the anger, the freedom, the letting go, the bonding, the realizations… all invaluable for us all. We will never be the same. I love you, my dolphin/human pod.

But I still had to go to California and get to a doctor. While much better, I was still feeling mighty strange and weak and shaky and I had to follow through on this. During the whole week my mom was so worried, and I felt so bad but I had never needed her and my dad more. We had made arrangements for me to fly to California instead of going home to Costa Rica.

I had avoided the Body Scanner machine at the airport with the blink of an eye and was feeling my power coming back.  In fact I was feeling very giddy. That is until I got into Houston and carrying my computer around in my backpack made the dizzy weak heart pounding feelings come back on and then of course the fear… less fear, but still fear of the unknown. What was going on with my body?

I don’t think I’ve ever been so happy to see my parents. That is until my mom told me she was taking me to the emergency room. The reality sunk in. This was not over, I needed some answers and it involved doctors, hospitals and Western medicine because my parents were now in control. And I really wanted to know one way or the other.

The next morning we went to the emergency room. I found out that the way to be seen immediately without even finishing the paperwork is to say the magic words “chest pressure.” Boy, did they move fast, got me into a gown, taking blood, blood pressure and an immediate EKG. The EKG and blood pressure again were fine, it would be an hour and half for the blood work. I was hooked up to a heart monitor and there I was, realizing my biggest fear. Hospitals, doctors, needles and the worst of all, that damn IV in my arm ready for whenever they needed to pump me up with something.  The tears flowed.

Again, it was like the twilight zone. This is someplace I have always avoided, feared. I wont even watch television shows or movies based in hospitals and I couldn’t believe this was my life and that it was happening to me right now.

The doctor comes in and tells me all blood work is fine and they need to take two more blood tests and if they are fine, they want to do a stress test to check my heart. This meant I needed to be admitted to the hospital and stay overnight for observation and the tests.

Say whaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaat????? Overnight in the hospital? Me???? IV in my arm??? ARE YOU FRICKEN KIDDING ME??????? Waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa, Mommmmmmmmmmmyyyyyyyyyy!!!!

NOW it was my worst fear. My worst nightmare come true. Overnight in a hospital. This couldn’t be happening. But it was. I knew I had to shift right now or I was a gonner. Whether I had heart problems or not, the fear was gonna kill me if I didn’t get things under control.

Deep breaths. I am seeing the light. This is going to be okay. Even if something is wrong I will get treated. I have the best care. This isn’t the end of the world. Hey that doctor is pretty cute. Better to know. Maybe George Clooney will show up. Maybe someone needs me in here. This will make a great Facebook story. This is all happening for a higher reason. I am going to be okay. All is well.

Whew. I was back and came back while facing my very worst fear! There was nothing left now.

I got taken to a room, set up, hooked up and settled in. My parents were there but I eventually made them go home, I was actually feeling strong enough now, had the stability and power back enough to start looking at what got me here to face my worst fears.

I closed my eyes, tune in and hear dolphin laughter. “Very funny,” I say as they show me a whole movie in seconds with a thousand different sub plots and side stories and interweaving and intertwining involving everyone on the dolphin trip and their lessons, and my lessons. They are very proud of their heart surgery they have done on me and they excitedly show me the complexity and thousands of levels on which they have worked on me and on which I have shifted… but then I feel some seriousness coming on.

“Sierra, are you going to stay?”

“What do you mean?”

“Its okay if you want to go, we know the plan was Happy Healthy Hot and Dead and it’s a good one, one that we dolphins often practice. But we want you to know that this heart opening surgery gift we have given you was for the physical human work you still have to do. And you can choose either way. Your physical body is healthy and part of this was to let you know that, get the physical evidence you needed to know. And now that you know, what are you going to do?”

“Ok Ok Ok. I’ll stay. But no more doctors and hospitals and needles!”

Oh dolphin laughter. There is nothing like it.

They remind me of how I have asked for chakra openings. “Sierra, how many hours have you listened to your Chakra Kahn playlist?” (I have a playlist I made with Jonathan Goldman’s and Source Vibrations chakra opening music and had been listening a lot. I called the playlist CHAKRA Kahn ;)) )

“Haven’t you been asking for the next level? Haven’t you noticed that where you are feeling the pressure is in your chakra centers?”

Gulp. No, I was so worried that I was having a heart attack that I hadn’t noticed. But now  that I had my steady footing and connection back I did notice… well what do ya know?

I hear the dolphins laugh again. “What is so funny now?” I ask.

“They should have put you on a Heart Chakra Monitor and they would have found out what was going on with you!”

The next morning I get my third blood test, it checks out and I am wheeled over to the cardiac unit where I get to watch my heart on a monitor in live, living color, sound and all through some magical stick that they have. There it is. My heart. Beating strong. They determine I am healthy enough for the stress test, I run on the treadmill, get tested again. I feel great. All symptoms are gone.

I glance at the clock and it’s 9:45 am.

I am told my heart is extremely healthy. My blood pressure is perfect. My circulation is great. My lungs are fine and my oxygen intake is at 99%.

“REALLY?” I ask, quite surprised. I really thought I had done some damage to my body over the years but I am in perfect health. I have not been to a doctor for over 25 years. And I would not have gone if not for something like this and I had to admit, it felt really really good to know that I am running strong. I feel like I have been given a second chance.

I hear more dolphin laughter. I remember the last time I went to Bimini, six years ago, I experienced another painful manifestation that led to another major heart opening by the dolphins. I had slipped and fallen on the tile in my bathroom in Costa Rica. I almost took my eye out and ended up with a very big and bruised eye and side of my face. I knew that the Universe was calling me to make a shift, painful manifestations always are a call. I called Christopher and as divine orchestration would have it, she had a Bimini dolphin trip leaving in two days. I immediately left Costa Rica and got to Bimini.

During that trip, I had the most lucid dream I have ever had. It was daytime and I had gone to my cabin to rest because I could not keep my eyes open. In the dream I was in the water and a bottlenose dolphin swam by me and then stopped about 10 feet away. He then swam at me as fast as he could and hit me right in the heart with his beak. I went somersaulting back and knew that I had just received a major heart opening, dolphin style.

As I am spinning in my dream, I hear the call “dolphins” and as I got ready to get into the water, I said, “if that dream was real, I see that same dolphin right now.” I knew I would and I did. She swam right up to me and around me. I took photos and they still give me the chills when I see them.

Amazing heart openings came from that trip and the dolphins had done it to me again. Major heart openings stemming from painful manifestations that build up from my resistance to becoming MORE.

See, they will always call me to be all that I can be. They will call me to clean up the in-congruencies and mixed, split vibrations. They always call me to open up my heart and live authentically and from love. And they let me know when I am not, when I am stuck and when I cannot see it. And sometimes it hurts, but that is the only thing that will get my attention.

I experienced so much growth on so many levels. It’s funny how we learn the same lessons over and over from the new levels we reach. Like now that you are here, THIS is what Love is. And now that you are HERE, THIS is what love is.

One of the women on the Bimini trip shared with me how glad she was to find out that I was human. She shared that she was afraid to meet me because she thought I was this perfect person who always had it together and manifested all these magical things… and my vulnerability helped her to relate to me and feel comfortable around me.

I never felt as human as I did on this trip. Authentically human.  And I share this story now because I learned so much about community and needing each other. It’s okay to need each other! I need YOU!! I don’t want to walk in front of anyone, I want us to experience this authentic and beautiful human experience together, with love and compassion. Here in the physical. Non physical friends only go so far. We need each other’s physical authentic humanness.  Hearts wide open.

An interesting side note and this is just sooo dolphin like to play with me like this:

A few weeks ago, my friend Anhalira posted that she was going to Brazil again to meet John of God, the very famous healer (as seen on Oprah.) She asked if anyone had any prayer requests she would take them to him. I wrote sent her a message that said:

Good health for myself and my parents, unlimited abundance in all areas of my life, and for my soul mate and I to finally meet up in this lifetime... the sooner the better!!

A few hours after I was released from the hospital with a clean bill of health, she wrote to me that she had submitted my prayer request to John of God that day. I wrote back and asked at what time and she said 9:30 am California time. Just when all my symptoms disappeared. Go figure.

I am not sure where this is going and I don't need to know. What I do know is that I am not the same, I will never be the same and that community, and grounded, heart centered people are more important to me than ever.

I have faced all my worst fears and all that is left is Sierra Raw and Unplugged and Heart Wide Open.

I love you.

Sunday, April 17, 2011

In this interview from 2007 I speak with Lisa Bonnice about my weight loss and how I changed my thinking to become thin in my mind. Enjoy!

Wednesday, April 13, 2011

170 Pounds Lost and Paradise Found - Sierra on the Indigo Room


This is an interview I did back in November 2007 and just uploaded to Youtube with the new longer video time limits. It was great listening to it again and it contains lots of great information about weight loss and becoming thin.

Thursday, March 31, 2011

Becoming Thin Weight Loss with Sierra Goodman - My Latest Interview

 

This interview is from March 2011 with Ande Waggoner. Learn about the I AM D.I.E.T. and get on your path to the thin person you are!

Monday, March 21, 2011

Time for a Spring Cleaning of Limiting Beliefs

Me thinks it’s time to do some Spring Cleaning of limiting beliefs. Yes! Spring Cleaning! We clean our houses out... why not clean up our minds a bit too?  It’s time to give up limits as usual, life as usual. It’s time for self observation to identify the beliefs that always have the last word. Once limiting beliefs are identified, they are shiftable. In every area that I have shifted this week, I have seen immediate evidence of my new, unlimited beliefs. Just like that. And that rocks!
You must be present to your true feelings and observe yourself reacting when the subjects of relationships, money, wellness, etc come up. Don’t just go into robot reaction mode. It is in those moments of self observation that we can identify those beliefs that are holding us back and begin to shift to more unlimiting beliefs that will get us where we want to go. When you think about the subject for which you want different results, do you get a knot in your stomach? Do you say no I can’t, I could never, It will never happen, I don’t deserve it? When you observe others who have what you want do you get jealous or angry or do you feel happy for them? Notice. Observe. What are you thinking and feeling that is holding you back and what are the new thoughts and feelings you can shift to that will break you free?

When you shift your perspective and beliefs and allowing limits, inspired ideas come to you, people and messages and signs show up that are a match to your new beliefs. You see instant evidence of your shift. The proof that you have shifted is in the evidence that shows up in your life and in the world around you.

First I identified some areas in my life where I wanted to see change and shift. I think it's best to do one or two at a time, not try to tackle a whole lifetime(s) of beliefs at once. I really let myself observe and feel what my core beliefs on those subjects were. Name it, Claim it, Shift it. As I embraced my new beliefs the funniest things started happening... I shifted some beliefs around money, income and relationships... as soon as I did, I got some really great inspired ideas for new ventures and putting life into old ventures... three people in one day contacted me about life coaching even though I have taken my site down... and I started getting private messages from a spiritual singles site I haven't visited for months!!  Like I said, the evidence comes fast once we shift!

Friday, March 18, 2011

Filtering Love - The Japan Earthquake & Tsunami

As I snorkeled among the fish this afternoon, I thought about the interesting dance I have danced this past week… knowing that in the broadest, highest, Source/God perspective, all is truly well… and seeing and feeling the pain and suffering of so many people. Though I live among some of the finest nature this beautiful planet has to offer, I have cried many tears watching images of some of the fiercest nature imaginable unleashed half way across the world.

It has been an interesting dance as waves of terror, fear, anger, uncertainty and anxiety wash over me unexpectedly and I have to quickly remind myself that it is not coming directly from me, but from my brothers and sisters who share this spinning globe with me, to whom I am connected. I breathe deep, ground, connect and center. Into Love.

I remember that my guidance has been showing me the importance of staying grounded and embracing the authentic human experience lately. I am understanding more and more the need for groundedness now and shifting into Love. Fast.

I remind myself that the Collective Consciousness has shifted a lot this week (as well as the Earth’s axis!) and with the influx of passionate, deep, strong feelings, emotions and vibrations in the stream that my CC Radar is working overtime, tuning in and bringing me signals, letting me know where vibration and energy need to be shifted. Into Love.

As I feel the fear and anxiety of others, I defuse those feelings with LOVE. Sometimes I can feel an individual person, sometimes it feels like thousands or millions, but just the same, when I feel these feelings coming from the Collective Consciousness, I shift them from within myself… therefore shifting them outside myself. Shifting them into Love.

Fear and anxiety and uncertainty are replaced with LOVE and sent back out into the Collective Consciousness Stream. We don’t have to change anybody. We just have to shift the feelings, emotions and vibrations within ourselves as they come through and send them back out. With Love. Garbage IN, Love OUT.

And we don’t have to worry about where it goes either. Divine Orchestration takes care of that. We just make the shift. Into Love. And send it out.

I swim along with one of my favorite Parrot Fish friends and watch as he filters water in and out of his gills, getting out the oxygen that he needs. I start thinking about how nature, our Earth, is one big filtration system. The trees and plants filter the air, the rocks filter the water… Nature reuses and recycles in perfect balance and is constantly adjusting and evolving her filtration system to keep that balance as resources change and evolve.

We are the Collective Consciousness’ natural filtration system. We keep balance by filtering anything that isn’t Love into Love. Just like the trees, rocks, animals, all of nature is a natural filtration system to keep balance and reproduction and life and evolution, we reuse and recycle and shift and filter thoughts and emotions back into love.

I embrace my work as a Love Filter. It is one of the reasons I am here.

I tune in and begin to breathe in rhythm with the fish… more and more fish, all my favorite kinds, come near. Together we filter in all that is not in balance or needed and filter out only Love and Divine Grace.

Saturday, March 5, 2011

Be True to You

Listen Divine Beings and you will hear
Your own Inner Guidance loud and clear

You are the one who knows what’s best for you
So follow your heart, to your authentic self be true

There is nothing to obtain, no one you have to be
You have it all inside you, so set yourself free

In the present moment is where you find your true self
Past stories and present worries remain on the shelf

To follow your dreams is what you came here for
So get passionate, BE Possibility and wait no more

Instead of complaining and waiting for change
Refocus your NOW and watch your life rearrange

Let go of the baggage and the attachments too
Cause’ once resistance is gone, it’s a dream life for you

Let go of the hurt, let go of the blame
And start living your life in charge of the game

Be FOR, not against, speak from love and respect
This is how you create the Love Consciousness Effect

When things don’t go how you think they should
Remember there is the law of The Highest Good

The higher perspective, the Divine Broader View
Is how it can all make sense to you.

Allow unique perspectives and inspired Source to flow
Every Being has their unique journey to expand and grow

Trust in Divine timing, let the Universe orchestrate
And it all turns out better than your imagination could create

Know you are worthy, embrace your Divine
Expect the best to happen, for it happens all the time!

Live from the heart, be the LOVE that you ARE
And your true and authentic self will shine like a star.

~ by Sierra ~

http://www.divinedolphin.com/

Friday, November 19, 2010

A Little Birdy Told Me: A Story of Pure Love Through a Toucan

I have always loved the toucans here in Costa Rica. We raised three since they were just days old and without feathers. They eventually returned to the wild where they belong. We had another toucan, Cassidy, who followed me around, hopping from place to place. But there was something different when I came back this time. I loved them even MORE.

I was so drawn to them and was glad it was the time of year that the palms have the fruits they like to eat so they were around a lot. I told them how much I loved them, I talked to them and I even made a video called I LOVE TOUCANS. I was showering the toucans with my love and appreciation for them.

Not too surprisingly then, one day last week a guy walked up here with a toucan. When we appreciate and love something so much, the Universe brings us more of it. It took me about 30 seconds to even realize he was holding one as he had it under one arm and the toucan was pretty much limp.

“Let’s go up to the kitchen, I have some papaya and see if he will eat,” I told him. The toucan practically attacked the papaya which was a good sign. He was still wanting to eat.  I asked the guy what he was planning to do with the toucan and he told me he was going to bring it home to his mom to take care of. His house was still a half hour walk more. I said, “Please let me take care of him.” And he agreed.

I cut up some more papaya and brought it and the toucan to my room.  He was soaking wet, cold, shaking, and weak.  I put him on a fleece blanket and let him rest. I marveled at how love and appreciation of these beautiful animals brought one to me. As my friend Kidest said, "It's all that love you've been oozing that brought one to your doorstep."  YES!!! Love and appreciation CREATE!!  Love and appreciation brings those things that we love and appreciate right to our doorstep! What a beautiful, wonderful world!!

The toucan, whom I named Timook, could hardly stand, and he was so cold and wet that I ended up wrapping him up in the fleece blanket and holding him to my chest. I closed my eyes and called on St. Francis whom is my partner when it comes to animals. I felt St. Francis put his hands on mine and then the most amazing thing happened. I saw this flood of white light open up above us and wrap around us. We were showered and wrapped in this light and I don’t really have the words to exactly describe the feeling, but I can say it was the purest love I have ever felt. It was the PURE LOVE of GOD. It was warm and bright and complete and intense and so very fulfilling.

This deepened my ability to let Source/God/Love flow THROUGH ME. I did not have to do a thing, I didn’t have to “try” to heal or try to do anything. I just got out of the way, emptied my mind and let it FLOW THROUGH.

Synchronistically, my beautiful friend, Kelly K. Brown, whom I always seem to be in sync with, posted an Abraham-Hicks quote that helped me to find the words:

It was so much more love than she’d ever felt that she didn’t know what she was feeling.
It was being hugged from the inside, out. It was cellular love.
It was a love so thorough, so complete, so wrapped through her that she thought she was having a heart attack!
It was love that was so pervasive she didn’t know what to do with it. She couldn’t describe it, she couldn’t label it, she couldn’t contain it. It was bigger than she was consciously, and vibrationally, ready even to endure; a love so great she couldn’t quantify it or understand it.
And in time, little by little by little, she and so many others of you have raised your vibration until you feel on a very constant basis that Love wrapping through you.
-Abraham-Hicks-

THAT describes what I was feeling. It didn’t end when the light faded either. Anytime I held or put my attention on Timook, that wave of LOVE washed over and wrapped around me.

Timook was soaking in this energy. Toucans are usually very skittish with humans and can do some damage with that big, long beak… and Timook was old enough to have the serrated edges that helps them to rip apart their food. But he made no moves to attack me, I could see that he totally trusted me. In fact when I cuddled him up to me and he put his beak down on my shoulder, tears of pure joy/love/connection streamed down my face.

Timook seemed to be getting stronger and even hopped around my bed a little bit. He ate some papaya and watermelon throughout the day, sometimes from my hand and sometimes he even took some himself.

I had a dilemma of what to do at nighttime. I couldn’t allow my dog and cat to be in the room if Timook was free because although they had pretty much not shown any interest so far, a fluttering, flying toucan would be too much for their instincts to resist. So I put the dog and cat out. The dog whined, the cat scratched at the door. It was going to be a long night. I tried to wrap him up and put him in a box, but he was much too energetic for that. He kept popping his beak out and then wiggled himself free and stood on the edge of the box. Hmmm, this wouldn't do. But then I had an idea… I wondered if Timook was strong enough to perch on a rod, a shower curtain rod to be exact. I brought him into the bathroom and sure enough, he was able to stand and seemed happy to be able to perch there for the night. My problem was solved. I was able to shut the bathroom door, let the dog and cat in and everyone was safe and happy for the night.

I checked in on Timook several times to make sure he was okay. The last time I checked, he was in full Toucan sleeping form… tail up, head turned 180 degrees and his beak resting on his back. He was getting stronger!

In the morning Timook seemed to be a little weaker than the night before. I heard him fall off the shower curtain rod perch and I went and got him. He really wanted to be by my side and anytime I went into the bathroom, he would hop to the edge of the bed and try to look in. When I’d leave my room, I’d put him on the top of a wooden chair and he’d turn his head, watching me walk out and would watch me through the screen as I walked across the balcony. I spent as much time with him as possible as we both loved the energy.

Timook ate a bit during the day, but not as much as the day before. I was starting to get a little concerned that he was getting weaker. I decided that the next day that I would call the wonderful bird vet that I met through my macaws and other toucans and see if I could send Timook to San Jose on the airplane to get veterinary care.

As the day and evening wore on, it was obvious that Timook was getting worse and probably wouldn’t make it. He couldn’t stand on the chair let alone the shower curtain rod. I was going to have to stay up with him as I didn’t want him to die alone, nor did I want to wake up with a dead bird next to me.

Timook alternated between laying perfectly still to his body jerking around. He placed himself right up next to me, with is beak under my arm. I stroked him and spoke words of love… and around 1:00 am, he left his body.  I felt his spirit go right THROUGH ME.

I felt both relieved that he wouldn’t have to suffer and sad. We had bonded so much in these two days together, experienced the BIG LOVE of Pure Source Energy together.  We had a very special bond indeed.

I gently placed his body in a box and put him on my altar. The next morning, as I was sitting on my bed, a younger toucan landed on the thick vine right outside my door. I had never seen a toucan land there before.  He was looking right into my room… right at ME!! He looked over at the box where Timook’s body lay and then back at me. I heard Timook speak to me:

“Yes I see the body there, but I am not there. I am here in this toucan and everywhere, in everything. That love that you felt with me is in every single thing, it is the Love Particle that permeates and creates ALL that Is. Thank you, Sierra, on behalf of all the toucans. You are one of us. You are one with us.”

During the day, several toucans visited, hanging right next to my room, looking in at me, thanking me, showing me that Timook lived on.  I no longer felt sad. I realized that Timook did not come to me to be healed. He came to me to give back the love that I had been giving the toucans and to allow me to experience that Pure Source Love wrapping around me that we feel when we die… but we don’t have to die to feel it!! I am very much alive and I felt it and now have access to it at any time.

The love that Timook brought me was to bring me up to speed with the new higher frequencies of love that now exist. Whether you believe that 11/11 opened up new vortexes, stargates or whatever, the truth is that that many people focusing on a new reality, that many people focusing on Love shifted the vibration of the planet to a new higher frequency.  It was a gift beyond measure.

My friends and I were posting people’s Facebook statuses to each other, all of them about LOVE, commenting on the new, higher frequency we all felt. There was a big wave of LOVE going across the planet, and I know that Timook took me along the crest, on the leading edge of the wave of LOVE.

Thank you, Timook. You are forever in my heart and will never be forgotten. I feel you and the LOVE that we shared all around me.  Wrapped in Love. Pure Source Love.

It just doesn’t get any more delicious than that!