For so long, I thought that maybe
something was wrong with me. I was just not able to have the small talk social
conversations that other people seem to easily have. I am so easily entertained
by nature and silly things but soooo easily bored by constant banter about…
well, nothing or at least nothing that interests me. I have a very hard time pretending
like I am interested and quite honestly, don’t do a good job of it. I am so
content just quietly hanging out, like the animals do, and especially WITH the
animals. I have no need for constant conversation and in fact I avoid it.
Many people do not understand,
and I understand that they do not understand but it is just in the last year or
so that I have really truly embraced who I am, how I am, what I am… and what I
am not. Some people get frustrated with me or take it very personally that I
don’t need to know every last detail of every event that ever happened to them,
but I now have learned that that is their insecurities and I don’t let it
become mine. I feel sooooo free now to just be me and not take personally what
other people think or try to change who I am and how I am to please others.
